Reminiscence of a girl

2008-04-06T01:01:00.000-07:00

MOVED

2008-04-03T00:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHONGRONG!(26th MARCH)

22th March2008:

My red butt monkey master piece!!!

i love this picture ...

haha, our ah gong xD

we're gna whack the elephant i tell ya !

Joane THE baby elephant

AHHH~ crap. HAHA

& lastly, this is our retarded video while on the tram. WOOTS! we were high after running in the rain !!!!!!!

More fabulous photos, but ha ha, those are for my own reference ((: particulatly loved the one that was printed out for us!!! (of course we had to pay -.- ) yays!

woah... this post is like supposed to be up long time ago, but was super lazy to upload photos. haha, next will be zhiwen's bday post. wait la. LOL. gotta grab the pics first. Yup Yup ^^

Had CO camp last friday, hmm.. was kindof cosy la. but only got to like interact with my group peeps, which is like only the few of them ? Grasilda, Jason, Tong Neng & Melissa. They're all nice people lah.. :D That's the reason why im still in CO aey. I miss co music though. D: D: D:

& i miss seniors D: blahhh

usuals :D

2008-03-10T07:03:00.000-07:00

REVIEW OF MARCH HOLIDAYS

Decided to cram all my March holidays posts into one post since my blog can only view 2 posts at a time. Yep, here goes..

Saturday

A long overdue post, STEP UP 2 WAS ZEH BOMB! hahaha, love the dance moves and of course, canning tatum. Too bad he only appeared like 10 mins of the show, but still, OMG HIS MOVES WERE SLEEK ! yep, a fulfilling movie to catch.

because of you, i find it hard to trust no more
photos from thurday(likelastlastweek?)

Thursday

Met up with Rache at Macs for our study date. I jioed her. haha, many people must be so jealous right now. too bad!
studied studied studied then met ZhongRong who expectedly got lost around the area.
Ate lunch & went up to her house to study again.

I DID STUDY OK! I REPEAT. I STUDIED :D
(Mr Kuah should see this) haha

Vincent came soon after and there's some commotion about the dog Pee. Super funny. Then Vincent's lap became Shylo's new bed. How comfy~
Played Wii for a while then i ate fish&chips made my Rache's maid. nice~
OHOH! & BOXING is damn fun! hahahaha! i bet we looked like a bunch of idiots playing that game :D

Tmr will be date with the usuals again. I cant wait to watch STEP UP 2! Hopefully i can go tmr laa... sincerely pray (:

Tuesday

Class Gathering! :D
Xbox was the craze~ Played HALO & soon Boon came with FAMOUS AMOS! He's real sweet ya.
Headed for Heeren and walked around.. I WANNA GET LU XUI RUI'S ALBUM ! butbutbut, i shall save my moolah on the 4hotstuff instead.
Bought 2 pencils at morethanwords so that me and Rache would have identical ones.
It was the spur of the moment laa. ^^v
After that found out that billybombers was BOMBED, and coincidentally met Mr Kuah. Decided on BREEKS after some argument.(btw mok&hoon)
Boon ah! they were more of playing around lo, how is it possible to quarrel over such things!? HAHA. Besides, their bickering were pretty cute (:
Breeks was alright i guess.. ate the half chicken. Mr kuah and I were just busy cutting our chicken the whole time, didnt pay much attention to anything else around us. LOl. ~~fun right~~

Photos to be uploaded soon, a lil lazy now ah.. :D

(backtrack)
My life is now revolving around basically the usuals: Rache,Hoon,Boon,ZR,Mok + occaionally Rahul(enjoying himself in India) haha!

Friday
Had CO in Sajc. Woah, Lian Kai can remember me, surprised, but at least one more person i know there:D

commercial break(just in case i forgot)

(someone) says:
stupid boys better
(someone) says:
they just pay for all the stuffs and treat u nice

(someone)says:
i am bad boy
(someone) says:
bad boy are the most charming
you'll never believe who's the someone. HAHA

Went to meet the usuals at Rache's place. I think the food is nice la! only Alvin says not nice. Super fussy. Then we walked around to digest&wait for Rache's family to finish watching tv. Went up to play WII again! hahahaha! fun la, the self-claimed WII CHAMPION :p
A little not right without rahul&luqman though.. like the other time we played....

Saturday
Went over to MP library to study (quite accomplished) with 3-4 questions of partial fractions done? :D
wahaha, & i pulled off Rache's shoes and almost socks too just cause i was feeling random.
Being with the usuals is just so comfortable. Can laugh at like just anything. Went for lunch at Hans & then arcade. WOOTS! Percussion master champion VS WII champion. FIGHTFIGHTFIGHT!
Boon and Mok played this rollercoaster game. Their reactions are super funny! Cannot describe, but the video's in my phone. Can enjoy it anytime hehe.
Off to Mok's house for dinner:

1.Hoon made Mok lose his appetite by reminding him we just had Hans 2 hours ago. yeayea~

2. We were discussing about how big boon's house is.
Mok: YOUR HOUSE IS MY HOUSE X2! (moment of silence) nono.. PLUS RACHEL'S HOUSE!
this made me broke into fits of laughter. HIS EXPRESSION WAS HELL FUNNY !

3. ZR just randomly stretchedout his hand( i forgot for what reason ) , & hoon said: how come your hand so long one? Then the guys harmoniously stretch their hands out together to show hoon. THEN MY HANDS ALSO DAMN LONG LA !? wahaha! , and boon laughed his high pitched laughter again. Can't stop. Can't Stand it. even though i was sitting the whole time.

4.manymanymore...
p.s ZR broke his record of finishing his meals today! plus half of alvin's. notbadnotbad....
After that was tuition for me (:

Monday(Today)
Met Rache in the morning for a haircut.... nothing much to say about that.
Except when we were heading off to my place.. at the MRT station. Saw.. dee. yep. Embarrassed myself as usual, I CANT BELIEVE I WALKED ONTO THE WRONG ESCALATOR. am i retarded? dang~
But ya. not surprising either. ~~Dude, walk as fast as you can (: dont look back~~

Studying at Boon's place was quite productive today. Though played psp(dinerdash), computer(VIRUS!) & talking rubbish, it was still useful to study together. Boon taught me chem ! haha & the guys were trying to solve my chem problem, but failed. xD
Dinner's at boon's house was awesome. Love the food & loved the stuff that we talked about. Though it's quite.. haha, but it's funny ! no harm done ^.^

Tmr's gna be class gathering. Though it'll just be the few of us again, THERE'LL BE MR KUAH! MISS HIM LIKEnuts!
& i miss rahul, kaifan, shakina&yvonne D:

marchbabies

2008-03-07T09:07:00.000-08:00

(edit/)MARCH +LATEFEB BABES
(pictures are l-o-v-e)

artistic pls :D

Bra spokesperson

Dear old fred..

happybirthday !
" I ate 1 hokkien mee, 4 chicken nuggets, 1 chicken wing & 1 chicken porridge" tell me if i missed out any on your wonderful lunch :P

He just needs a refil. -.- More retard photos in the process. ZW! i want those 123456789 pics by everyone! Then can make the twit collage xD

SAINTS 08S28 !

presenting the 2 camwhores!

us with THEBOSS

9631...... (want our number ask yourself xD)

Cess&nadiah. cute seh?

half of the girls plus1

People ! We've gotta learn to start loving (I'm lovin' it ) like Ronald Macdonalds! I've no doubts we'll have fun ya huiying. Remember, we're still going for SC together ! Mr Lee is THEMAN.

Ohman, i think i did gymnastic in my dreams just now. In the middle of my sleep i can pull the muscle on my calf and start screaming. DAMN PAIN LA ! Im gna be limping while meeting the clique ye. & Rahul is a ps king. PS can mean many things { pangseh/ pangsai } HAHA. Hopefully, I'll accomplish some studying today, or else my lecture tests after the hols will be screwed. Rache,Boon&ZR, MUST HELP ME EH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YO !

2008-03-01T07:46:00.000-08:00

I HAD THE BESTEST
BIRTHDAY EVER ~

Had such a fabulous day with 08S17 clique! Although the pictures were gone.. i know that it'll always be in my (points to brain like rahul) memory for as long as ever.

Rachel, Shakina, Hoon, Yvonne, Kai Fan, Rahul, Boon, ZR & Mok ! We had brunch, volleyball, bball, frisbee, waterpolo, skyride, luge & a whole lot of FUN PLUS LAUGHTER at vivo.

Some interesting happenings:
KAIFAN REALLY KNOW HOW TO POR PEOPLE ! We were getting the vball deflated a lil.. and he strode into the shop & said : MEI NU ! ( pretty lady ). & boon actually called her auntie. HAHA. of course people happy to be called mei nu right.. ah he've got high EQ that kf.

Rahul & i had cake on our face, thanks shakina and rachel for the cake !!!!!!
I was dragged and thrown into the sea period.

The guys were scared of the skyride ! &.... so was i. HAHA
Alvin and Zhongrong were "screaming" behind us for the first time we rode ! Rachel's like.. so MAN as compared to them. heh.... of course im a sissy too.

Boon was so super sweet to tail behind my luge ride for 3 times to make sure that nothing happens to me. SUCH A GENTLEMAN LAH !

ZR have a nicer figure than rahul. LOL LOL LOL ! sorry ya.

All in all...... birthday was love ~~~~~~

I'm really happy that i've met this bunch or people.. like.. i'd never imagine myself being such tight friends with mok and hoon in chung cheng. It's seeing them around and yeah.... them thinking im a super DAO person and finding out what a crazy retard i am. That's the amazing thing about life.... the unexpected always happens, you can never predict what will happen in the future. So, i'll have positive perspective and an optimistic longing for my future in sajc. (:

Lastly, thank y'all for the wonderful presents and cards (:

Luqman: Sweet coster which you dont even know what it writes. HAHAHAHA. still, thanks a lot, i love it la (: & thanks for everything you've helped me and done in sajc. remain tight yea!

Yvonne: Thanks for the ripples. i think you'll be the one i'll see less of in the time to come since you're gg off to poly. will miss you ya ! & gdluck in poly !

Kaifan : you rubbish and crappy "generous-irritating" (translated) It's like so expected of you to give me sucha funny and lame stuff, like how i would do to you! HAHA. But i love your present lah, bobbly pop-out eyes simply suits me best. PLUS THE PIGGY IS SO CUTE ^.^v walao, reminds me of THE SUPREME PIG la.

Rachel : THANKYOU FOR PLANNING ALL THESE STUFF & LIKE BEING SUCHA GOOD FRIEND SINCE I'VE KNOWN YOU ! I'll really treasure your KC badge cos it have such deep sentimental value :D i wish i could kiss you !

Shakina : ha! i shall eat the famous amos when i get my voice back. hehxD I've not been a junior for 2 years already... & it feels so good to be looked after by someone again ! esp. someone so sweet like you ya. im gna miss you like crazy.

Hoon: It's always exciting to see you again, cos you'll jump up with eyes lit up and charge towards me and give the tightest and most comfy hug ever ! So happy that i get to know you during pae period when we're in the same sch for 4 years being strangers. I GAVE MY SECOND KISS TO YOU ! (1st was to a baby). the earrings are super pretty <3

Boon/ZR/Mok: WALAO THE MUSICAL BOX SUPREMELY/SIBEI NICE LAH ! thanks for making the day so fun for all of us. y'all are the manest & most gentleman of all .

Rahul: Aw..... so touched to receive your present. you actually wrapped it yourself and wrote a damn sweet card. SWEET TALKER lol ! yeah... thanks for the "i'll make an effort to make you really happy okay" thingy. I was really happy today (or is it considered ytd since it's alr 12.35). really really happy...

THE END OF A WONDERFUL DAY ....

SAJC still sucks

2008-02-27T06:38:00.000-08:00

Life in SAJC is suffocating me.
I feel so suppressed there, the Joane you see in Sajc is ~~not JOANE.~~
Even Mr Kuah cannot imagine.. thanks man.
If i speak like how i would in tpjc, i would probably get a slap across my face on the first tutorial.
yeah.. one big fat slap (: how nice.

I'm still feeling so ~~wtf~~ here. Guess i'll just post 08S17 bbq pics some other time.
It's like things piling ontop one another, stacking higher and higher until now it's almost toppling down & im putting my utmost effort to balance it.

Hopefully, by Saturday my life will be back to it's rightful course & i'll be me again.
I dont wanna be like that, really. Cant stand it no more.

* Went back for hockey training. As usual, the girls were nice :D
other J1s joined today, some thought i was J2... weird. haha. yeah.. tmr.. i shall ~~fear~~ and anticipate tmr to come.

2008-02-23T09:14:00.000-08:00

TPJC COUPLE DANCE :D

BBQ at Ping Boon's house today, it's fun just by the presence and company of the clique xD
Mr Kuah's like an adult with a child-like casing, really regretted my decision more after speaking with him. Yeah..but guess there's no turning back now.

Mediacorp next big star says:
hey
Mediacorp next big star says:
just to ensure evryie is back safely

such a sweet senior(: tpjc's full of sweet people, rly rly rly rly rly love them.
i'll never experience such stuff in *-

Open up a little man ! I must not be stuck in the past just because im comfortable with it!
That's so not Joane, pls.
But it's just so difficult. That's what makes you a MAN and i JOANE

An interesting photo to share ( credits: taken by 07S21 Muhammad Shuib B Mohamed Amin , http://www.tpjc.net/photoshare/?id=00025495)

view taken from cafe (: how amazing...

OGNIGHT (tpjc)

2008-02-22T08:31:00.000-08:00

TPJC IS ~~SUPREMELY~~ SIBEI FUN ! Went back for their mass dance on thursday & joined Rahul's OG to dance :D

Danced the first song with waiteng, banana and their friend. HAHA, they're super cute.(tpjc peeps are all super cute ^.^v)Then couple danced with Rahul. HAHA. love it man.. i love their couple dance.Comparing with *'s one.. TPJC's like.. WOAH.. nicenicenicenice.

ORIENTATION NIGHT 2008.

SUCH A WONDERFUL TIME SPENT THERE! It's like going home and having a really wild party. Everyone's so hyped up ! I like the feeling of knowing people, and friendly people greetingyou and giving hugs upon seeing you. Makes you feel worthwhile.. like.. you know you exists.I dont know why.. But going to SAJC makes me feel like becoming autistic.. seriously dont feel like mixing around and stuff, in other words, ANTISOCIAL (: HAHA, from luqman,waiteng&co: i cannot imagine you not talking for 1 min! ; but yeah.. me not talking for hours is horrendous.
I'm really damn sad, esp. when i saw Mr Kuah.. Can't believe my eyes watered when i saw him.Such a cute teacher.. WHERE CAN YOU EVER FIND? lol! He's the cutest and nicest teacher i'veever met, & he gave me a flying kiss! *blush :P
Mass dance once again.. SUPER FUN! but this time.. not because i danced with Rahul, i totallyspoilt the dance for him.. was busy looking elsewhere. DEEEEEEEEEEEE ^.^ !(he's so gay being the girl for the couple dance! but still.. cute&smart) duh xD
Then had this liveband alumni performance.EVERYONE WENT BERSERK! IT WAS SUCH A HIGH TIME!After the jumping and all.. it feels like you've just had a hangover. one word:

WOW

&..... GO GO POWER RANGERS! ~ ~ ~ ~ FIGHTING

ALL DAY LONG!!

LASTLY.. THANKYOU TO RACHEL, SHIYUN, LUQMAN, RAHUL, PING BOON AND ZHONGRONG FOR BEING THERETODAY. TRUELY A SUPERB TIME SPENT WITH THESE PEOPLE. I LOVE <3>BITS. (not literally)

2008-02-19T03:39:00.000-08:00

ER ER ER

JOANE <3>RACHEL

Joane :

Moodless official last day of PAE.

Met Luqman&Zhongrong&Rache for breakfast in the morning.. (the ~~"last"~~meal) feeling

Just doesn't feel comfortable with the thought of leaving all behind, esp. when i know and experienced so much of such stuff before.... where people will claim and say that the feeling would still be there and sorts & things will eventually fate and poof it became coco crunch (different meaning as luqman), .... yeah maybe im like looking at the down side of all these... maybe it ain't all that bad?

HAHA emo already emo already. On the brighter note:
we'll still meet up on SATURDAYS ! yea yea.. (:
let's wish all of the peeps in 08S17 all the best in their new school and environment... enjoy themselves no matter where they are.. & of course... ALWAYS REMEMBER ME !:D

p.s & of course... ~~MUSTAFA MUSTAFA MUSTAFA!~~

Rachel :

My feelings are all ~~muffled~~.
[How do ya'll feel aey??]
Ah wells, really hope that our gang will last : )))
[Kind of hard to say what I feel la]

(I'm more of actions than words) "Ya'll don't know."
i'm hungry-

[I'm going to miss everybody.]

Anyway,
wherever ya'll go
enjoy yourselves always !

[it's alright if I look like the lousy one, because Joane rocks.]
RACHEL will miss JOANE
~~more than the lousy ones.~~
I won't forget ya'll yeah.

~~[I know i'm not alone]~~

//zzzzzzz//

We can make it right
Throw it away
Forget yesterday

2008-02-16T21:36:00.000-08:00

I can't believe this :

" We hooked up in 2008.
We dated and still get along great. It's complicated. "

fucking funny ! (pardon me)
thanks, rahul

LOVE

2008-02-15T21:14:00.000-08:00

~ Some things I wished it was true, even though I know that it's just a fantasy ~

! Yesterday was superb ! Although we missed 20 minutes of Jumper, i still think it was interesting. Rahul doesn't think so. HA, he's like super funny.

Went Rachel's house to play wii and chill. Man, some stuff that Rahul says really can make me rambutan hair stand..... Stop all the vday stuff willyou ? lol.

& Pingboon's sucha naive and innocent boy, can easily bluff him over anything (he believes me & rahul are together) Luqman's a mature adult with a whole ton of muscles. Rahul is a bluff. He've got the built but sucha lil boy inside. Throughout the night, we were mainly laughing at his childish behaviour.

Alvin: "OMG I CANT TAKE IT ALREADY, RAHUL IS F***ING FUNNY !"

" FIRSTLY, HE'S SLOW, SECONDLY HE'S BLUR & TOOK LIKE 10 SECONDS BEFORE HE REALISES ANYTHING ! "

Alvin's a nice beng, always around to talk big but still, it's a joy to have him around. ZR's fussy eater, but nice cos he treated me to taiwan milk tea!

Rachel's a sweety. Always so thoughtful and considerate for others, God bless her <3 Hoon's a crazy fella, alway laughing and hype about the lovely things aroundm esp. Candy * .

hahahaha, i really love 08S17 ! but good things really dont last long eh ? Another 2 days time. hopefully i can get into SAJC. Then i'll be meeting Rahul to head for school ! yep yep, ^.^v

& lastly, This is a classic : " Do you believe in love at first sight? Or do i have to walk by you again ? " by the special one.

TPJC (:

2008-02-01T19:46:00.001-08:00

Currently enjoying life at school now, but somehow... I'll be leaving all of these things, people and cliques i am so accustomed with through this 1 month.
But i believe, there'll always be departures welcoming new beginnings.... and it's also the best things in life. We'll have to leave behind certain things and memories so as to move on & enjoy even better views/sceneries and phases of life.
Yep, by the by, i'll take memories together with me through my life adventures :D

Tpjc had been real great so far, truly enjoyed the times with 08S17 and the hockey mates. They're like such a blast to be with!

08S17 !

Today is a very special day!

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY CAROLINE!!

i love me car~ VROOM VROOM

such a sweet friend since like forever.... ok FOURever. 4 year what. haha.
soomehow i wish that the friendship wouldn't end. drifted apart when you went off with steph to another class, but we can still be tight! that's really something to be proud of (: hope you'll be shining in your future endeavours, & i'll still be part of your ever so exciting and wonderful life ^^
love, jo

2008-01-05T19:08:00.000-08:00

okay, the best thing about tpjc, or rather the only good thing about tpjc is that i've got fabulous friends around me ! :
haha happy geraldine? lol
& i realised that geraldine have become retarded to the utmost degree throught the years.
that's pretty sad.... ): ): ):

yep.. and so the days shall go by with the accompany of ms retard, waiteng,chek kai, yintak a.k.a duckmon, jixian, amelia, peixuan, shermaine... yada yada. all the primary school peeps.

p.sthanks geraldine :D

tpjc

2008-01-04T02:13:00.000-08:00

Tpjc's orientation's pretty screwed up. But the ogls there were pretty nice and fun.
yeah... boring old stuff, shan't talk about it. (:
haha

Picked up a few ccas for fun, just to brighten up my first 6 weeks of jc life.
lol, i'll just stick to one when lessons really start.

hmm.. yeh.. blogging seemed to be a tedious task these days, so...
CYA !

disappointed

2007-12-17T19:44:00.000-08:00

You forgot.
Doesn't feel good to be the only one remembering & treasuring.
It's been years since i renewed those memories...

On the bright side, work's been fun for some days (:

Wet Wednesday

2007-12-04T22:31:00.000-08:00

Another off day, been raining since morning.
how boring...
spoils the mood of going to the 6.6gongshangers gathering, so ended up staying at home, rotting.

previous off day went for *****.
hopefully the case would be solved asap, gdluck (: & support from me to the end

omg omg omg, im so excited to go see xing guang bang!!!!
pls dont let anything ruin it. pls pls pls pls pls !!!!!

yay !

day at work

2007-11-19T18:06:00.000-08:00

First day at work was.... okay i guess.
Except that my leg hurt like banana split and after reena went off i was bored to death.
aye,.. guess work's always like that.
wonder when it will change for the better, like after i work for 1 month ? -.-

but zhuang's coming to visit me today ! haha, at least wont be so boring cos reena's off day. hmmm,... but it's HER off day too, so wont be that bad. :D
& i still havent bought my heels! esp. so now when everyday's work and next monday is prom night already. howhow (?)
looking on the bright side of work, at least now i will be more reluctant to spend money. yea..

2007-11-17T09:27:00.000-08:00

You know, there have always been the :
" yo mama so fat people jog around her for exercise" /
"yo mama so fat she gets on the scale & it says to be continued" /
" yo mama so fat she got baptised at the Pacific Ocean"

& so i wonder, why dont that do a mama's stupidity joke series?
instead of yo mama, they should go jo's mama.

i'm so not being evil here, but hello, i cant stand it anymore.
Stupidity is not a sin. BUT stupidity plus being a total bitch IS.

hey fuck care if you dont understand anything.

Post- olvls fever

2007-11-13T22:14:00.000-08:00

it's been so long.... woots!
finally survived the three weeks or pure torture.
:D but come to think of it in a good light, there'll be perhaps whole 3 months of study-free!

feeling so sick after the kbox session yesterday,
reached home with my head weighing a ton... terrible.
being sick makes the excitement and fun of post olvl's activities go poof*
hopefully i can recover by friday, and have fun at seoul gardens and grad night.
HOPEFULLY... (all the blessing gods of the universe, hear that?) xD

Starting work next monday, at vivo marks&spencers.
seems tiring... yet inspirational. Gonna miss out on a lot of activities during thw holidays,
But, you'll gain nothing without any sacrifices yeah?
Sure wouldn't wanna miss out on any alumnis gathering or CO chalet, M&S better give me a leave on 21stnov and 4thDec.
or i'll go on strike or something, lost of man-days :D

brrr.. sick~

2007-07-31T20:12:00.000-07:00

Monday
Cin, Esther, Rachel, Edeline all never attend school. So alone! haha,
during PE played badminton with zhuang they all for a while. Then i got bored, so i pulled jade and xiaojun play vball with Alfred ! whahaah, was super fun. Sheldon, Vincent and Guang heng came to join us, but sheldon left. Even Mr Teo came to hao lian his skills. But still, wahaha, the all girls + lil alfred's group won. xD

Tuesday
Super boring day. Whole day i was trying to stay awake but nodded off in the end. woots, i know how to write 8 out of 10 words for chi test. lol, i thought it would be a flunk lah. So, it's considered an achievement (:

Wednesday
which is today... I'm sick. bleag. ytd after school was talking to zhuang, then she predicted that my sore throat is gonna come, so i gorged on water. Then within about an hour, the sore throat came. Dang, i hate sore throat out of all the sickness you can get !!
i mean those non-fatal ones. yeah, so the sequence was runny nose, sore throats, and then fever. Typical flu cycle.
& here i am, not in school, but trying to study at home, and not run off to the toilet and puke all the time.
ciaoz

to go or not?

2007-07-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

These few days have been.. i forgot what happened. HAHA

Bryan's birthday just passed, Happy birthday to him again (:
been seeing pretty lots of pri. sch friends, missed the pri sch days.
& i missed my sec 1 and 2 ! 3 more months and o lvls will be over, i'll be graduating!

And was pondering upon this issue ytd ( ) .

conclusion: i shall go if you go. let's pray.

Gone with the wind 360 days before.

2007-07-20T08:13:00.000-07:00

I realised when you're stressed, bored, or have just nothing better to do, you'll inevitably think about things that you've never given great thought about it, or imagine stuff that aren't going to be real. Maybe it's because that usually, when we're hectic with the world revolving around us, I have an excuse to just shrug it off and brush it away, but it's kind of difficult to do so now.
Doesn't make sense(?) nevermind, make sense means you got problem. :)

It dont have to mean anything, as long i make sure it doesn't.

Have anyone of you tried the feeling of regreting your actions before? like what you should have done or should not have done a long time ago? Thinking back and wondering what would you be like today if you were to do this instead of what you have done? It feels like you've eating a balloon into your chest and it's inflating every second you breathe. It feels like it's going to burst, but when it's on the bringe on blowing up, it lets go suddenly again and the pressure is released, but not for long. Soon it repeats itself.... and the vicious cycle continues. Terrible.

But it's gone long time ago, there's no way to want it back.

2007-07-17T07:44:00.000-07:00

Was bodyslammed ytd !
haha, first time experience, pretty cool~
okay, im mad. :S haha

The last thing i heard before i was on the grass was : AHH ~
crap, no one pulled me away-.- lol
But it's pretty cool to see people's reactions when the whole accident happened. esp. yx, so funny.
ok, so thankyou to : xj, angelina, esther, cin, r'chel, ed & the kind xieshern. HAHA

going back to school again tomorrow :D
40 more days to o lvls, im getting more stressed by the second.. HELP !

2007-07-12T02:50:00.000-07:00

boring post, dont risk reading it (:

Yuan Yang asked me today: " why dont you upate your blog anymore?"
And so here I am, blogging after 9 days. and yy, tag when you see this post. haha

Had a whole week of tests, the worst was yesterday's Prelims oral. sigh.. dont talk about it, it's going to be a flunk, im so disappointed. Pray for me that Mrs Sue isn't as strict as i think she is. ):

I'm so tired now, headache.. i wish i was sick, better than the half sick half not sick feeling :x
okay actually there's nothing nice to blog about, all i do now is watch tv, play com and study = no life.
maybe this friday's harry potter plus saturday's haircut will brighten up my days. lol
-end of my random post- im gna faint

past week. bleg

2007-07-03T03:32:00.000-07:00

Have been trying to study for the past week..

Friday

Had dinner with fellow alumnis!

haha, was a funny dinner. & i ate a fish with a giant tumour.

So, i currently have a fish tumour growing somewhere in my body :D

hehxD okay, that's a little no link.

But the feeling with seniors was so.. comfy. haha,

& weisheng finally knows who his dad was talking about (although i dont know what his dad talked about) but yah, know im the one that played marbles with him when we're a feet tall. L O L

And then there's our mi mi yan daddy coupled with his handsome tie. haha,

oh plus junhong! he damn HIGH that night. long time never see him like that already. missed all of it :D

Saturday
slacked at home, half trying to study, but ended up hogging on the com until it's time for tuition. which is 8pm -.- haha

yeah nothing much on tuition on sat.

Sunday
Went for tuition once again, tuition was... bleag
shan't elaborate.
but , you're so wrong :D

Monday
events on this day are -disclosed-

Tuesday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN RU!

sob, i missed today's speechday rehearsal ):

farewell peeps!

2007-06-22T06:07:00.000-07:00

Camp have just ended!
i think it was fun :D Although i missed the ice breakers and games.

Really thank those alumnis for coming back to h elp us with the nightwalk. i think without them the PA system wont work, we wont have such a nice movie to watch, and LT2 wont be scary with long hui's ghost stories. And those difficult to scare juniors would not be scared. thankyou seniors! i love them .

the night walk was damn fun ! much more tiring den the previous one. can to run up and down the stairs, squat down and stand up again, scrap my knees every time i grab their legs, BUT hearing their screams, everything's worth it ! hahaha.
The grand auditorium's atmosphere was so freaky when we went there to prepare, esp. the stage.But the weird thing is, when the first group came and we start scaring people, we're not scared anymore. The only thing you can think about is about scaring people, and about how tired you are, how the air is thinning, and how you're gonna faint. HAHA. serious, the 3rd floor audi is so dusty that you're breathing in dust instead of the idk how many per cent oxygen that is in the air.

The next day was farewell party. Really really touched by the juniors, they played canon-in D for us in the powerpoint presentation. i was laughing at first, but i dont know why, when i went up for my little speech, the throat got stuck, the words just couldn't come out! yeah, and you know what follows.. haha. i had so much to say lah.
so here goes...:

Thank you all the juniors for being with us for so long. From when we were still the juniors, figuring out how to become seniors, till the fun-loving seniors we are now. Although we are not the best seniors ever to you guys, but thank you for still respecting us. yeah.. sorry to tania for being late all the times we walked into school together.. enjoyed those times.. thankyou eunice for being my going home partner so that i wont be alone enduring yong chuan's lame and no link blabberings.. and yuan yang! thankyou for listening to me whenever i talk to you, you've been real sweet. i really saw the change in you from when you were still sec 1, grown up already hor, the next time i come back, you'll be a MAN :D jiayou !

hols are almost over !

2007-06-15T22:07:00.002-07:00

One more week left until the holidays are over.
Keep thinking of what i have done this holidays, apart from not completing homework and studying, i say it had been quite fulfilling hur (:
But there's still so much to do, nightwalk planning for example.
i swear it would be much more relaxing to be a normal member, less complicating i guess? And more time to yourself.
BUT, it's worth it. Rebutt me if you disagree, we've all enjoyed the process of being in the committee, no matter how often we complain about the things happening around us.

Oh, there's still a lot of things i want to do before the holidays are over! like going out with dearest ah mun (ha ha) and of cos, seniors @

After the Co camp that's coming up next, i'll be free-er to study. Hope i will though, and hope i can go to the camp. Prays.
Farewell would be cool~ Remember the 2 years of farewell etched in my heart, now it'll be my turn. MY TURN! woots, so fun [=

Really hope that the nightwalk could work out. Jia you people for the a maths retest! Don't deemed yourself as an idiot in it so fast, nothing is impossible. As for the one thing i learnt from thr past few months, the amount of effort you put in doesn't really determine the 结果 you'll get. Sometimes, you just have to put in more than what others have.

anw, just to say, Wentworth Miler is cute :D

contented

2007-06-09T22:39:00.000-07:00

啦啦啦
靠着窗听袁惟仁弹吉他
他认真创作的哼哼唱唱
爱情傀儡征服和梦醒
了都变成了主打
靠着窗半夜听着袁惟仁弹吉他
他认真创作的哼哼唱唱
一点一滴筑音乐的梦想
就要像他一样

i like the chorus ! haha, but the rap is a little stupid though.

i must get used to it, people come and go
even how much we don't want that to happen and,
no matter how hard we try.
It's a cycle, not everyone can be there for us
till the end of time.
Therefore i shall never believe in "forever" ever again.
Nah, i'm not being emo. just a little sorting out
and NO, i love my life
so John wouldn't catch me back and play a game between
life&death.

comm chalet over!

2007-06-09T06:02:00.000-07:00

I'm having such great fun bluffing Zhiwen about her station.
Wahaha! >.<' so sorry !

lol. okay talking about the past few days, committee chalet just ended. half relieved half distressed. Don't know what's going to happen after we step down. and no, it's not about the juniors, it's what's gonna happen to me. total life of studying. wanted to start to mug really hard after the chalet, but the energy had all been drained out of me. Maybe it's just an excuse.. maybe..

The motivation i got are gone now! Seriously, if i say i'm not worried, i tell you, im lying. pray for me people. (: haha

i don't feel like recounting everything about comm chalet. just that, the feeling is totally different when you're a junior and you're a senior, esp. when all the respoinsibilities are yours and you're in charge. Doesn't feel good, stressful !

Jia You juniors ! the next batch of juniors 就靠你们了！It ain't an easy job. No matter whatever setbacks you guys may face, whatever conflicts may occur, just remember the responsibility is given to you and never give up. Things will soon resolve , & i'm always here :D

feeling so colourful right now. heh heh. tomorrow's tuition. test again, which seems a little useless since i didn't study. ah daniel , motivate me luh !
okay i shall stop my redundant blabbering and start studying. (in a while's time.., a while)

dellimma

2007-05-29T05:16:00.000-07:00

i really should work on my persuading and convincing skills.There are things stuck in my throat not knowing how to say it out, and you can never trust the other person to get and understand what you mean.
or maybe, sometimes the best words are those that are silent. i miss those people whom i can just look at them and they would understand, or a simple nod would do the trick. but nothing is forever.

Went CO room after school, ahh~ i didnt even know there is supposed to be a little discussion? ha, nvm.
anw, i wonder how many people will truly understand our predicament, those that experienced it before? haiy, why is it that times are so different as the past, i bet nothing like that will happen if it was 2 years ago.

I've finally got my answer :D woots !

pls note it's a camp not a chalet, thanks (:

no longer top4

2007-05-26T19:22:00.000-07:00

elections finally over (:
all the best to the sec 3s, no matter what you guys got, as long as you guys do your best towards a union goal, the post doesn't matter.
you'll understand as the year go by, trust me.
But treasure your time instead of brooding over mundane things. goodluck..

cant wait for tuition, bet zhuang will laugh at me for that, but staying at home slacking doesnt feel good, neither is it good for the health. haha just can't focus at home. couldn't get to sleep yesterday night, keep listening to my blog song "When you're Gone" , love it.
I believe you'll get it sooner or later, i just wished it was sooner...

Recently, i just can't get enough of tv HAHA. especially cartoons. I feel like searching for the disney movies (cartoons!) that i watched when i was a little kid and watch it again. It's nice ok ! Watching cartoons doesn't mean that i'm childish or anything, it's a hobby, an interest. Besides, sometimes i think cartoons makes more sense in reality than "people-acted" movies. They portray the happiness, sadness, anger, disappointment, hopelessness etc more vividly than it can be shown by human expressions.
okay, i just not find excuses for loving cartoons. =D

speaking of that, i'm going to watch ANG, LEGEND OF THE AVARTAR. !
be back soon !

BOGUS

2007-05-25T03:44:00.000-07:00

Tried doing the chinese online homework today, but the damn com changed the answers i put in! total bogus..

keep thinking must study already, but keep can't focus at home. tomorrow still have elections whole day gone, got comm dinner, cant go tuition. still deciding between the two. hmmmms...
but everyone will constantly badger me if i dint go for the former. haha. /:
nvm, i have national library mates. heee.

and there's still comm chalet planning and maybe co camp. holidays would just be gone in a zap. worrying y'know, looking at the results. Some lady called my hp asking for my mum to arrange a time to see Mrs Cheng. Ah, why would Mrs Cheng want to see me for my results? As if she knows anything about me. All she can do is look at the results and IMAGINE what kind of person i am. The school reallt loves doing such inane stuff.

i think my house's electricity bill is going to be very high, seeing how my brother watches the tv from morning to night. cannot imagine him being th for 1 day, think he'll die.
been ranting non-stop because i have nothing to do. homework is getting more and more boring by the second and i have no books to read ): that's very sad .

ciaoz..

back from hiatus

2007-05-23T06:01:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since i've blogged.
MYE was lousy, but wasn't really affected by it. haha,
promised to study harder though, hope it's not another lie to myself.

can't wait for comm chalet and co camp, but that means it's 6 days off my hols 6 days in 2 weeks study time. how to cope ?
election coming, im stepping down! lol, (:

all the best to you
(:

pictures

2007-04-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

Picture sums up all the days (:
15 photos only this time, more to come :D
(click for larger images !)

2007 SYF

2007-04-04T07:05:00.000-07:00

waited 1 day to cool before i blog.

Yesterday we had our 12 mins on stage, the time we have been practising for the past 1/2 a year. The results were.. disappointing/depressing/ ______ anything you wna add in. It was a 60% luck and 40% other circumstances thing, we weren't in our top form.
But nevertheless, I'm proud of all of us, my peers and my oh so wonderful juniors. You guys did great, really really touched.

Remember 2 years ago SYF, the feeling on stage was so wonderful. Jiaqing said to me ytd: you have the same puffy eyes as i saw you 2 years ago.
really saddening...
so many people cried yesterday, or rather, we weeped. the crying were even worst than the previous's. We had worked so hard. however, none of it matters because it's only when we're on stage do we really officially performed.
BUT, to cchmsco, the road to success is the loveliest. we treasure the times together, our practices, every min and second together.
i cried not because we got a gold, i cried because i know, people are disappointed. alumnis, huanglaoshi, wulaoshi, everyone.
2005 SYF:
seniors say, you guys must help us achieve a GWH in 2007 ok !
2007SYF:
zhong zheng zhong xue zong xiao GOLD
2009:
?
haiy, over my dears, no matter how much we think about it, cry over it, it's over.
enjoy our time together before the sec4s mug for our o lvls and graduate.
really had a good time with all my juniors,
ilu, ALL OF YOU !

the feeling of fighting as a whole towards one unified goal a with the same passion is really amazing.
Music works miracles (:

Ruan-ers

2007-03-24T04:10:00.000-07:00

I'm happy for one thing today,
but sad for another.
Thank you Ruan-ers for being so united and doing your best for CO once again. I really really appreciate it. 谢谢你们！

However, today unfortunately, was a total waste of time, money and effort. I was coated with three layers of sweat. -.-
Tomorrow will be xiaozu again, to correct the small problems we have; the details and some disturbances we have. Then tuition. I think the weekends I so wanted since last Monday is going to be over too soon!

: Today I was seen in my 狼狈 position with the Ruan people by Esther and Vanessa. ha ha ha. Sshhhh ...

人生如戏，戏如人生。。。

random

2007-03-23T05:25:00.000-07:00

(8.25pm)
y.c was angry.

(9.23pm)
okay already(?) i guess i should really control the words that come out of my mouth, or my hand for any case.
one mistake 2-3 years back is traumatising enough for a whole lifetime, dont let it happen again.

tomorrow is kranji performance. heard that temasek have interaction? and simin say someone told her cchmsco main was going. weird.. we're gna duplicate ourselves. haha.
for now, SYF is main priority. the feeling on SCH stage is gonna be so, memorable, just like 2 years ago. i so love that feeling <3

i swear im gonna be more careful with what i say next time. whatever that may bother you, pls just correct me.
pls and thankyous :D

tmr will be another tiring day...

(10.19pm)
Min Ru just told me about her pri 4 tuition kid. when asked for something that she like/want, she says handphone. omg, when i was pri 4, i would be so happy just to take my dad's phone to play the snake game. HAHA. black & white screen. children nowadays are.. unbelievable. lol
that's why juniors batch by batch varies so much. like, we're different from fredrick's batch; we're different from the sec 3s batch; the sec 3s are different from the sec2s now; so on and so forth. 世界变了！the world is changing....
i think i ought to sleep now.. ZzzZz..
goodnight loves<3

sick

2007-03-20T21:27:00.000-07:00

(1.15pm)
Sometimes, we must be careful with what we wish for.
i fell sick faking to be sick. dumb.
been vomitting the whole morning, now the vomit rest for a while, thinking whether to go for xiaozu not, i scared tmr dazu i havent recover.
anw i think xiaozu only lasts for 2 hours, will be just tanbo gg through? idk !

ah, imma useless bum
zhiwen faster reply me !
ZzzZz..
so weak now.
help me(?)

somehow i hope that syf will be over faster,
but somehow i want it to be later
contradicting i know, but it's just so tiring worrying about CO and about studies; it made my stomach flu act up again. and it's worst than before. sigh..
but alas! all of us will continue to work hard. (: 这是我们的使命！
so happy to get A1 for both my maths, although it's not very high, but still, it's an acheivement! woots (:

(7.45pm)
oh man, i really can't stand my brother. he's so obnoxious to the whole world and thinks he's no.1 wth. he can quarrel with me for the slightest thing, esp. FOOD. i hope someday he can eat until he's too fat to talk. give me some peace to the ears.
URGH.
i always get scolded because y'know why ? he's fat and he shouts, cry and when he jumps, the whole building shakes. so all in all, im at the disadvantage. within a few years time, he's gna squash me with his fat ass.
having a sister would be much more fun. at least when we fight, it'll be in a more civilised way. and 80% chance that she will not be so fat. ivan dreamt that i have a sister and she looks exactly like me. HAHA. funny :D

staying at home did nothing better to me. all i did was sleep and vomit. ZzzZz.. how interesting.
ilove my blogsong ! <3>
(9.10pm) you've been afraid since i'm 13 going 14
the fears still lies deep beneath the strong outer cover
you become alert of every single movement and thoughts
struggling to hide, afraid to say that you're scared
the layers of fake protection peels slowly 2 years later,
you're fully exposed again
how is it that people could be so open and free you wonder
when there is so much "evil" around
you keep thinking that hope still exists
and god is fair
but everything that lies before you
proves that fairness doesn't go that way

a single act, a small movement adds up to the moments of your life
a single wrong move in life can bring you down
loosen your guards and you'll be eliminated
it's the game of life

i think i was too bored to type this
cheers :D

SYF's reaching

2007-03-19T03:35:00.000-07:00

one week of holidays is gone, one week nearer to 3rd April..
scary,
today went school and it was pouring. stopped at the canteen to reply msg, den jamie came give me the three cute pairs of earrings(which is..haiz read on). thankyou !
den rachel came. she dont know where got shelter lol, so walked with her and open my umbrella. at this moment, misfortune befalls. i lost the earrings!!
ahhhh, i was copying homework den i suddenly panicked, so i ran down and tried to find it. den go up dejected. den run down again. but i can't find it ! haiy, sorry sorry.
so i remain in a very sian and sad mood for the rest of the day.
plus the shock people have on their faces when they saw my hair. wow, esp. ziyang. omg ! , he's like.. so.. irritating-.-
hahaha

2 more weeks to SYF. jiayou jiayou !
i want our GWH, getting a gold is not enough, seriously, i still remember 2 years ago. it was... saddening.
so yeps, treasure our time, do our best, and we'll have nothing to fear (:
it had been a really tough time for all of us, esp of course, chairperson zhiwen. i hope all the efforts wont be to waste, we'll end this batch of with a blast. 加油cchmsco!

如果，认识一位新朋友，仍能令你兴奋和快乐，那么你仍然拥有希望。
如果，你仍然能向他人伸出关爱的双手，那么，你仍然拥有希望。
如果，收到一封意料之外的贺卡或者信件，仍能带给你开心的惊讶，那么，你仍然拥有希望。
如果，你拒绝让一份友情走向灭亡，那么，你仍然拥有希望。
如果，你回顾过去，还会微笑，那么，你仍然拥有希望。

如果，你面临糟糕的境地，又被告知你的努力白费了，你还能以“尽管如此，但是。。。”的句式结束的话，你仍然拥有希望。

希望是如此奇妙的东西，他会弯曲，会变形，有时候还会隐藏，但他却很少会被折断。当我们陷入困顿，意欲放弃的时候，使它在支撑着我们，给了我们艰难前行的勇气。
它虽然异常珍贵，却在每个人身上都能找到它。所以在任何时候都别轻易放弃它！

nothing's perfect

2007-03-10T06:42:00.000-08:00

I feel like such a lousy senior.
or maybe it's just that things have changed since the last last batch.
but still, i feel lousy.
-------------------------------------------

If it never happened, i wouldn't have been outcasted for that period of time.
If it never happened, i wouldn't cry in front of them and run into the toilet.
If it never happened, i wouldn't have been sad.
If it never happened, i might have been now a really happy girl.
If it never happened, everything will be different.

If it never happened, i wouldn't have met the most wonderful 2 people i could ever meet.
If it never happened, i wouldn't have understood how the world functions.
If it never happened, i would have never met those few gentlemen.
If it never happened, there'll be no memories of wantonmee shop.
If it never happened, there won't be any memories at all.
If it never happened, i would never have grown up.
If it never happened, i will not be Joane Ling Hui En after all.

we'll never know who will be alongside with us till the end of time.
all we can do is follow blindly where life leads us.
when things become wrong, we find a way to deal with it, and learn from past mistakes.
" no one is perfect, we just have to find the best one "
quoted by. *

happybday !

2007-03-02T04:55:00.000-08:00

happy birthday to me (: !

haha. survived from the pre-bday syndromes and had a really sweet bday plus protege! so nice ! wahaha. thankyou people who wished me and those who gave me little wonderful gifts :D

common test is next week, and i haven't started studying. only got now and tmr afternoon to study. dang, CO will take so much of my time. ZzzZz.. no choice.
starting tuition tomorrow, wheeee. i guess im the only stupid person in the world that wants tuition. lol.
anw, few more hours to fredrick's birthday !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST FREDRICK!
THE ONE AND ONLY FATCAT (though he's not fat at all)

sadrandomness

2007-02-27T05:14:00.000-08:00

I thought things had changed for the better, but i guess happy things aren't supposed to last long?
Pms, stress, whatever, i just dont feel good.

2007-02-24T17:21:00.000-08:00

Yesterday had dazu. Was so-so but, haiy, not enough luh.
Then went boon chai's shop dont know do what. After tenghui's xiaoke i need to go already. So went home lo. hahaha

Geog common test is like tomorrow and i haven't started studying. DANG.
very tired, wanted to sleep but the stupid sun barbequed my butt. aye so sian so sian so sian.
This is s dumb post, thankyou and see you again (:

Chinese New Year :D

2007-02-20T20:58:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year! :D

Yesterday had mass bainian at CO people's house. Was fun (: haha, first was zhiwen's house. We did a really funny video there. lol, can't wait to see the outcome after the background music is put in. Then we went alfred's house. His brother Edwin is so cute! He keep snorting like a pig haha. Their parents so xin fu, all boys, if is my parents they sure very happy one hur. and they denied that alfred was shuai! omg, sheng zai fu zhong bu zhi fu! Played black jack there, and they all won money except me! i have bad luck. tsk.
HAHA. next was liang yu's house. we played twister! haha, and we twisted our limbs and bones. the worst thing is, we're addicted to it. Mingda is the all time champion.
Then we went Mingda's house. His dogs all so scary, freaking big. And he keep emphasizing that the smaller dog is a she, even open the legs to justify-.- pervert. LOL
Last house we went was Jessica's house. At first we were complaining how come must walk so long and lucky our house now like that, but WOW, when we reached the house, it was like so BIG. i want that house! lol. although i got go houses that are very much bigger; swimming pool, basketball court, garden, pool table etc, but her house very nice! forgot to go the rooftop though. so we stayed there very very long playing DDR, some car racing game and twister. hahas,
i dont feel like graduating so fast anymore!!

Last of all, my mum was in a good mood ytd! haha, so kind to come fetch me and not scold me for staying so late. haha, so i today so guai come home early early (: heee.
Friday got 3 tests! so gonna die.
and common test is next next week. CANT THE SCHOOL LET ME ENJOY MY SWEET SIXTEEN?!

p.s anyone wanna watch protege? i want watch!! xD

abnormal day

2007-02-16T17:30:00.000-08:00

Although ytd i wasn't really myself, it's fun fun fun!
hahaha and long teng was super cool !
went marina supposedly to watch movie, but spent the day at the arcade and talking at esplanade instead. saw so many people at marina; wushu people zixiang and chek kai's class and weilin wanting.
did a lot of stupid things ytd, so i went to sleep super early so that the not-so-me day would be over.
happy chinese new year eve!

And my birthday is reaching! wheeeee..
and so is common test ):

back stage crew ! : 1 2 3 4 5 6

2007-02-10T23:39:00.000-08:00

O lvl chinese was pretty bad.
okay, it was really bad. shan't talk about it.
i promised myself + * that i will study hard. ha, but i guess it won't work.
thanks to the few idiots i have as family.
rarrrh.. wth, min ru agreed to tutor me on saturday. whee, but i think it'll be her watching me study. haha, that's good enough for me :D

three cheers ^^

2007-02-07T05:25:00.000-08:00

Stupid today.
knocked my head on the shoe rack while getting my shoe.
pain like banana.
ouch.

Went to CO room for nothing today. SIAN. no time study for binomial and geog test already. and we have a co family tree that is completely retarded. haha.

tired.tired.tired
goodnight

another Sat practice

2007-02-03T02:48:00.000-08:00

had a very interesting CO convo yesterday :D

Today had CO, fenzu first and then the reviewing of our rehearsal performance. Minyuan is so cute. ha, she love hugging my mr skeleton and grins to herself when she sees i brought it. ok so dazu was soon over and then waited for them to practise finish LongTeng. it's pretty messy still,.. i think? anw, we walked out and i felt very sian and feel like sleeping. when home sleep until five plus, bathe and all. And then talked to Esther on the phone. she's stranded alone at Changi Airport. hahaha

ahh.. im on a boat with a hole. Water gushes in through the tiny hole. I tried using scotch tape and the tape tears. I tried using my knee to block the water, and the wood of the boat cracks, leading to a bigger hole. HELP(?)
HAHA that was pretty much what the conversation with esther was about for the last 5, 10 mins. lol.

cheerios!
the cup is half full (:

I'm like so bothered now. Tried doing binomial, but failed to do even one question. Then think of things i know i shouldn't be thinking so i started staring into space. and so i surfed from blogspot to google to wordpress to yahoo.
~~I really should stop making myself so troubled. haha. okay end with a pic.~~

no CO ??

2007-01-31T23:01:00.000-08:00

Have been thinking about this these days:
How would things be like when we graduate from CO ?
no more CO seems so wierd, everyday go home study for o levels. Although sometimes CO's a little sian and quite qian bian, but sometimes, it's quite fun.
It'll just be so boring without anything to commit ourselves in, and then there'll no longer be any $10 per touch kind hitting of drums, no more eating out, no more playing music together.
OLEVELS are so sian.
a few more weeks to SYF, few more months before we step down. SO LITTLE TIME.
anyone interested in study groups after we step down? xD

anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON (:
and tmr will be VROOM caroline's birthday.
so HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAR'LINE:D muacks <3

i remember last year, someone told me guys mature at the end of sec 3, but how come i see so many still acting so immaturely and saying malice jokes. disappointing.
does boys develop slower nowadays? cos my pri 5 brother is no better and acts like a spoilt kid. With him around, going home everyday would be a torture. i couldn't even study at home ! Even have to help him do his homework. so i tonight dont have to sleep already, must rush my homework. so, no CO a few more months would be torturous. or rather, a few more weeks CO will stop. So people, study group study group !! (:

ZzZZz

2007-01-29T04:44:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went shopping with ivan and yixiang for present and ivan's new year clothes. yx was late, so we sat at polar eat. ivan's treat. rich kid alr luh. lol
Walked around for very very long, going inside shops to say stupid things and finally got presents. After that went play pool at katong. i just laze around and watch them compete. damn funny.
On the way home, ivan taught us how to dian4 girls. He's like so jerk luh. wlao... LOL
but it was funny, cos he dian4 successfully. hehxD

Today had rehearsal, had a few hours of practice before preparing and heading for SCH. terrible, the sheng was left on the bus and so there's only 1 sheng playing. haiy, ..
suan le, ming4 zhu4 ding4 de.
hahas, went back to school and me tenghui and dianwen went to carry the few percussion instruments back to the CO room. so tiring. went back CO room all sweaty seeing everyone lying on the CO floor so shuang. sian diao.

went home after that (:

2007-01-26T07:08:00.000-08:00

realised i hate 4 actions that some people do :

-announced to the whole world what you did yesterday, when what and how.

-interrupt our conversation with no idea what we are talking about and pretend to know and end up embarrassing yourself by saying the wrong thing

-voice your opinions when no one even asked for it.

-think you have the right to be at somewhere when no one even asks you to; ask for details time place and date of a hangout without any invitation from anyone.

not pointing to anyone, on general, these kind of behaviour is absolutely positively annoying. These people thinks that the world revolves around them but sadly no.

thankyou for your understanding and cooperation.
please and thanyous (:

2007-01-25T05:18:00.000-08:00

Stressed out by all the tests the teachers been bombarding us with. Today a maths was dang easy, because i paid 100% attention in class and studied for this chapter. But tomorrow's tests would be a disaster, - last year's chapters. Am i dead or what.
Sound & General waves properties + statistics & cumulative frequency.
wish me good luck, i'm gonna flunk it like no one's business. not like i can help it, tried to study but understand only 10% of the shit. so how? leave my fate to god. amen.

just another abnormal weekend

2007-01-20T18:28:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went for CO. very normal stuff followed by auditions. yay, i feel proud of my dear juniors. they just got in and can play quite well already:D jiayou !

walked out for prata, lol, all of us getting mr skeleton bags. except jingwen getting miss rabbit. hahas, haiy, i'd rather have one without the face, it looks kindof scary. but dont have le. ):
went homw to change and went to jack's wedding dinner. they so sweet. heh. but the food was pretty bad.. LOL
i've been having triple eyelids since ytd, and today it became triple. BUT I DID SLEEP SOUNDLY THE WHOLE NIGHT ! gosh, i look like monster. haha.

four tests next week and i haven't did any studying. A little lazy plus dont know which to start first. hahaha. reminder to self: SEC FOUR THIS YEAR!
but before the mugging begins, SYF comes first! i hope we can get our first gold-with-honours. we can and we will.

2007-01-19T05:24:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to Jessica, Dianwen and Huirong !
as what seniors always say: KUAI4 GAO1 ZHANG3 DA4!

belated prezzies for you guys, haha. gotta get caroline's one too. yays ! Can celebrate birthdays together lo ! missed them hell a lot :D
2007 have been really busy. paid a little more attention in class, and talk more crap with sheng xian too. RUAN JING TIAN is cute. owen xD so there's homework, tests, homework, tests and more tests tests tests and homeworks. Sec four is the transformation of becoming a nerd. MY weekends are gonna be not weekends anymore. Soon....

tomorrow after dazu can't stay for long. Go home prepare for wedding dinner, plus all the tests i got to study for. saddening. laughed like mad today in school, im a crazy girl. HAHA. for some reason i dont know either, i always do stupid and retarded stuff in front of esther and cin and they'll laugh like there's no tomorrow. im not a clown people ! no wonder different people have different views about me, when the bees fly low, im mad, whent the bees fly high im dull. NAH, there's other reasons to that, but why should i tell you? bwahah.

spastic -.-

secondary school days will soon be over ! although i often wished i could quick zoom out of this nightmare zone, i would miss so so many people. besties car,steph, ivan,yx, esther cindy, my dear juniors. okay, shan't say all these, it's still january for god's sake! lol.
i miss the seniors ! i miss them when they were... erm.. younger. HAHA ! growing up makes us grow more apart. ): sad things of life. maybe someday i can find and unite everyone from my pri 1 class xD

2007-01-17T06:35:00.000-08:00

ANGER RIPPED THROUGH ME LIKE A SHRAPNEL
ANGER SHOT LIKE A POISON DART INTO MY BLOODSTREAM
MY STOMACH IS KNOTTED IN ANGER

I AM ANGRY.

I'm an asshole, i will get 30 points for L1R5. I'm lazy and i dont study. Tuition defeats the purpose for me, i will still fail and get 30 points for L1R5. I'm an asshole. CO takes all my time. I'm doomed to failure. i can't even graduate from chung cheng. i will get 30 points for L1R5. $280 x 24 months is a good use of money for darling boy while $180 is a waste of money on an asshole like me.

FUCK YOU.

2007-01-16T05:32:00.000-08:00

Had been lazy to blog these days. stomach flu is all well again (:

Going to school have become really tiring, trying to pay attention during lessons and all, plus switching off during e maths lessons. i know i shouldnt, but toh lay hoon's voice is annoying! why must mr kwek run away, despite what all other people say about him, i think he teaches the best. as compared to toh -.-

CO practices is now 3 times a week, really do hope we can improve, and not like what boon chai says, we're not even to gold standard. so demoralising.

i found duckmon! my pri 4 good friend. haha, 5 years leh, so surprising. heh, wong yintak. he changed like super a lot. xinyi said : ___________________________ HAHA

thinking of having tuition. should i??

okay, this post is super rojak and random
good day everyone!

ahh~... faint

2007-01-10T04:41:00.000-08:00

the past 2 days were like hell.
tuesday morning almost fainted in the mrt, but i scared no one come save me. the whole world became like a spoilt tv, become very very dark, with white spots like when a tv spoils. The entire body was so wobbly that i couldnt stand still, so i just squatted like an idiot at the mrt floor.
hell freaked out. i thought i was going blind.
took cab to school after that cos that day's period was super important plus got CO. lesson time was trying super duper hard to pay attention, but the body was... sour.

today went school, stomach got problem. feels like a group of 50 people are bbq-ing in my stomach, and the smoke is gagging me. went to library with jamie after school, super super super not feeling well. but yah, cannot fan2 hui3. haiy,
WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME!

not going to school tmr alr. tried doing the homework that have to be passed up tmr, but the really feel like puking ! urgh, im getting pissed with my damn body. help(?)

2007-01-06T05:09:00.000-08:00

Went shopping yesterday and today to get mummy's dress for the coming wedding. She bought me a top (: black with turqoise pokka dots. HAHA dont have my size, so they're sending my size over and gonna collect it next week (:

Yesterday walked from citylink den went to orchard walk for the whole night. My feet hell pain. When i was so so so so freaking tired, some idiot go scare me when i was going home. hahaha. that idiot is min ru. (see i blogged about you! xD) actually i was too blur and tired to realised who it was. heh,
so, i continue blogging about you. MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU MIN RU must make sure the min and the ru is separated one. hahaha :/

i'll blog the cliche way, why all other people blog about other people kind of way. how they meet, yada yada, process yada yada. ok, you get the point.

once upon a time, strepsils was being created. and strepsils brought us together, and we both know each other as senior and junior. ho, she's a slacker who dont go for xiaozu. But her skills are like superb, learnt it since she was a small fishball, dont go also nevermind one. She's like one great senior, everything also help you and stuff. best of all, she lives at simei too, so go school with her. haha. i love the grownup pretty fishball now (:

continued...
got closer to her when SYF audition nears, cause she taught me during the senior junior teaching sessions. Dont know why so ~~suay~~, everytime scissors papers stone and she's stuck with me. HAHA. And she's a fierce teacher, keep asking me why i so hungry, everytime eat up the egg. xD and then got a period of time she, me and jamie will walk out of sch after dazu then go take neoprints at bugis. ha ha , those were the days. then some things happens, and we got even closer. everymorning eat at wanton mee stall with fredrick and maybe yanghao. now the stall is closed ): yeah, that's about it. I'm so glas we're still in contact even after she graduates. <3lovelove

And we always have the same thoughts feelings about things/people etc etc. And even if we dont utter a word, it still feel right, because nothing is needed to be said. Secondary school life are like one of the down period of times in her life i bet, but hey, you're optimistic and happy! that's good you know. hahas, continue to be like that, but if you ever need to break out of that shell, I'm always here:D you've seen the ugliest state I've been in, so let me see yours! LOL
Many many years down the road, i hope to talk about everything under the sun with you anyhow. best mummy ever; muacks!

CHEERIOS <3

2006-12-31T02:30:00.000-08:00

31Dec2006- last day of the year.
These 365 days weren't well-spent, but it's worth the memories.
there's CO night for a start (: the night which we worked really hard for:

and then there's Cindy and Esther going through the year with me;

There's also OBS! got to know really nice people; xinying,chanxi,zixiang,adeline,christina (:

catching up with my beloved Serene while we mug for Eoys was fun too. She just called me for a sleepover at her place, wished i could go. Wanna spend the last moments of 2006 with her.

2007 there'll be no more seniors, no more yiqing to accompany me, no more weilin wanting to buy us snacks, no more tingkai shunta to talk crap, no more anyone to look after us.
Year 2007 will be a tough year. Gonna be SYF, and then o levels and then im going to graduate ! Head off to a new life, a different direction, and reminisce about secondary school days.

CAMP(:

2006-12-28T06:27:00.000-08:00

back from camp!

slept around 2 hours before campday plus no sleep the next night leads to a throbbing headache + fever. but Joel's panadol did wonders (: ha ha

was station master for bowling game, had fun disturbing the groups with forfeits and their cheers. ho, i like the shuai dao, sexy dao cheer. wahaha, i bet Mingda does too. lol

*fastforward to nightwalk*

starting we 4 (me,songyun,estelli,clarence) were freaked out and didn't dared to go up the dnt block due to some.. erm.. sounds. and Clarence's descriptions and explanations. but after going up with junyuan and quentin, dnt block doesn't seem as scary as before, but still scary. but thank goodness for the twoway lights all around the block or we will be afraid. anw, first 3 groups we were still not warmed up and sure how to scare them. ha, but by the 4th group, we decided to go into the toilet to scare them, and i pulled clarence along with me. how to expect me to be inside alone?! i'll just freak out. haha, so here's roughly what we did, one of us will throw the doll down onto them, and then just walk out and pretend that that's all we have to scare them, and ask them to sign the paper behind. den the other person will scare them when they walk out. We were like to happy when the first group screamed really loud. super funny . hahaha, jessica's group and jingwen's group were the most rewarding. heh :D

estelli also had fun scaring the groups, she became really brave. lol.

while waiting for the groups we got bored and entertained ourselves listening to the retarded conversation having through the walkie talkies and playing truth or dare. and of cos, who will dare to play dare when in nightwalk???????

after nightwalk felt so shagged and handicapped. and i think i forgot how to sleep cos i cant get to sleep for the 3rd time. and that's the reason im blogging at 10.44pm now without even sleeping since i've came back from camp. xD nvm, still have one more of joel's panadol. heee.

thanks the seniors for coming back and lending a helping hand esp. at nightwalk and the games before breakcamp. :D xie xie ni men !!

sec 2s good job, xin ku ni men le. learn from the mistakes this time and do a better job next time yeah. (:

2006-12-23T18:10:00.000-08:00

morning met the juniors in school for camp stuffs, the games are quite interesting in a sense; jiayou (: !

After that went to boon chai's shop with tania, eunice, shiwee and mingda. took a cab there and ho, junyuan paid for one cab. surprising eh? haha mingda taught me guitar!, but i'm still a retard with it. haiy, guitars are so cool. then md and th got so fascinated by the empire conquer game that wenjie was playing. -.- den we headed for suntec walkwalk, me,tania,md,th.

had a good talk, very funny. nightwalk's gonna be fun and i reckon the whole camp will be lah.

Went for payco concert, it's interesting luh, never see before such a concert. haha, quite cool. den went suntec with mum and dad. My parents are such kids when they quarrel! O.o hilarious.

holidays are almost over!

2006-12-19T06:55:00.000-08:00

~~re-exams~~ are over! ha ha to all those that have it tomorrow. xD
today rained for practically the whole day, dont like the rain. stupid rain.
been drenched for 3 times, it's like coming out of a shower without any towel to clean, irritating !
oh, how i hate the rain.
there's still so much homework to be done, and i dont think im going to start anytime soon, or even at all. ha ha ha.

i think i'm having amnesia or something, cos i can't remember wad hapened for the past few days since i've blogged. hmmm.. ytd was "studying" with esther, went liu xing's house den went citylink eat thai express. first time i felt the curry was damn spicy. must be cos of the cough and flu. lol. okay, what else...
i forgot.

12 days since i've blogged..
and i forgot what i did for the past 12 days.
oh, there's jerome's church thing. :/
urgh
i give up.
my brain is deterioting (is that how you spell it?)

ok, so the smart joane is going library with the i-love-rain jamie tmr.
woots! library!!!
dang, HOLIDAYS ARE ALMOST OVER!

sian..

2006-12-05T06:27:00.000-08:00

it's been long since i've blogged. lazyness got the better of me :D
I'm grounded ! staying at home since saturday. that's 4 DAYS!
recount last time i was out:
ms tay's house for gathering. was quite fun, watched horror film, den there's a break in between, toilet break. kai chun went in, we turned off the light, i think he was freaked out. and screamed that he scared of dark. HAHA, darn hilarious.

urgh.. why no one wants to go to library !
im bored.. ):

OBS first steamboat outing !

2006-11-25T20:38:00.000-08:00

(edit)
i have a baluku thanks to gerald for jumping the rope without me. ): gaaa
i think interaction was quite nice though we dint play bridge, heh. but dao teng and gerald was nice enough to run and get cards for us. ha ha. oh, and the biscuits were horrendous. *puke* QQ haven sent me the story of the murder. :/

steamboat was fun fun fun fun fun !!!
ha ha ha, shared a table with the guys, actually wanted sheares and kimsan, but aye, who cares? S&K equally rocks :D
so here goes, there were me, xinying, wee ming, jacques, chek kai, yixiang, bryan, guoxiang, zongye and zixiang and then there were jamie, joy, nana, yijun, adeline shuhua and wanning.dint get to enjoy the good food from the other table though, lol, but ours not bad too what. heh, xD
it was jacques birthday, so joy, jamie shuhua and I bought this Bridge "King" belt for him. ha, and wee ming wanted "queen".
enjoyed thoroughly ytd; those prawns jumping, crab hitting, egg BEATING, and crabs/prawns idiocity, all made up the fun.

but...
have to start studying..
SOON..
i hope. haha

my energy level went down after playing the last round of bridge ytd. ha, laughed too much. so, it's nothing really yeah? heh,
looking forward to another outing. woots!
cheerios (:

2006-11-22T03:37:00.000-08:00

I've been dragging a new post for so long, just because I wanna see the obs picture. ha ha ha
Went to play for ms tay's wedding ytd night, was cool to see so many teachers there; esp. ambert khoo and mr lee. lol, mr khoo was so suave with his formal wear, and mr lee cute in his pyjamas. LOL.
it was quite a flop, but who knows? haha, no one bothers anyway. hear some music and they're fine with it. heh,
hoho, and it was my first time seeing mr fredrick lai wearing a tuxedo. woots, shuai. and funny. hahaha
went to eat after that, chatted and did stupid stuff. ha, i miss having performances where all of us are together. (:

and gosh, we still can't settle the date for the obs outing. AHHH.

OBS; Shears !

2006-11-17T03:31:00.000-08:00

outward bound singapore/ benjamin SHEARES !

these 4 days 3 nights was such a wonderful period of time. really wanna thank all of Shears for the wonderful memories (:

At first, Shears was like a bunch of restless people. Everyone's sian that Liew is rattering so much useless stuff. But everyone soon warmed up when we built the raft. hoho, we made such a great team and made the best raft ever ! We didn't sink; ha ha ha. Fun to pretend to capsize and climb back on again. Gosh, I so love Shears.

We went for jetty jump after paddling so hard. It was scary, but FUN !
bathed, dinner and briefing for rock climbing, den back to bunk. Zi xiang hid in the cardboard to avoid being raped by zongye. Played bridge ! It was super fun and taught chanxi and xin ying how to play. thanks to tenghui who taught me how to play before i went for obs. ha, Chanxi is our da jie da. went back to our bunk to talk for quite a while. ha, attention to all taxi drivers, never drop a passenger beside a drain. ;) Zong ye soon came to hunt for zi xiang, he took the blanket and hid under it. Damn funny. Zy found him, then they cannot sleep, so they went to wash clothes. When zi xiang got out of the girls bunk, 3 secs later he ran in and shouted, faster faster ! come see! And there we saw bryan and kent sleeping together. lol.

Next day was rock climbing. ha, okay i admit i was lazy and lousy to make it to the top, left 3 more squares and I stopped. heh.Went to pack for the expedition to camp 2 next, carried the row of water bottles with zi xiang. Damn tiring, but Zi xiang is nice enough to carry most of the load. Reached camp 2 with aching arms and back. Then did a little of kayaking practice, the mangrove waters were... YUCK. den we practised capsizing. ha ha, our patner kayak was chang hong's group. when we finally used all our energy to climb back on the kayak, they pushed us down again !! LOL, but they got retribution, cos they fell in themselves twice. Kana scolded by Shukor. haa.

Went to find the toilet, asked 3 instructors, and they were darn cute. All of them pointed at 3 different directions. Cartoonish. The guys plus some of the girls went to set up our tent while others went to wash mass tins and make dinner. ok, rice was BAD, tastes like stale biscuits. lol, but it looked so nice! LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING (:

ho, i couldnt finish my rice, zi xiang ate my rice. haha, xin ying was right, he eats like a horse, although he looks like monkey. again, looks can be deceiving. After that briefing about the kayaking expedition the next day, den went to sleep. squeezed in the tent, had a little sleep talk convo with chek kai while sleeping. ha ha Zongye was saying he can't make out what we were saying, and our back were facing each other. hohoho

Third day; kayaking ! me, xinying and zhiwen one kayak. tired, but was worth it. trained muscles! Zongye's kayak held on to us for 200 m before we found out cos Chanxi was like : " Joane, do you find your kayak very difficult to move?" Zhiwen! why did you let it happen! lol. then at Chek kawa, it rained really heavily and all of us on the small island cuddled together behind the poncho to shelter from the cold wind. We finished our expedition within 6 hours plus! FAST? ho, we're macho dudes. trekked back to campsite 1(our grand palace) and went for night activity! finally there's something planned for us at night. we crawled through the tunnel. really dark and i couldnt see a single thing except for some white pokka dots which i assume it's my hallucination. heh, was fascinating how we found the exit. Shears rock ! when we reached the exit, we had the head count,counted till 13 and then there was no answer. so everyone shouted. ZI XIANG ! haha ! thought he was lost or something. end up was that he was blocking chang hong's group from finding the exit. SPASTIC.

Our last night at obs, played cards till everyone of shears slept except for me and Chanxi. Yijun, jolyn, nana, adeline they all were playing Cheat, and they play until damn excited and loud! pure madness. and some gay instructor carrying a turtle soft toy came in to warn us about the noise level. heh. after everyone slept, we went to Kim san's bunk to play with them. played to 3, den had no choice but to sleep,. everyone's seem to be so tired. haha, anthony was funny, i still dont know whether he was sleep talking or was he awake. haha, totally hilarious.

went to sleep and the bed seems to be swaying left to right, squeezed my eyes real tight to stop the dizzyness.

LAST DAY !! did high elements and it was hell fun!! me and xinying were patners. Someone told us we were the first girls to try climbing out of all the groups. forgot who, honoured. but i was a little uneasy at first lah, thanks to xinying and chanxi my belayer, we did it! i climbed up to the top without being scared. [: and chek kai for telling me the instructions and directions to climb.

zi xiang and zong ye managed to climb up this really difficult obstacle, amazing. zi xiang the legendary monkey. LOL

me and xin ying waited damn long to climb the middle obstacle. it was damn tiring, esp the rock wall. scaled myself up, den i sat on the log for a little while, so shuang. haha, while xinying climbed higher. ha, sorry ): rested until zi xiang gave me the : still rest !! face. climbed again, at the rope part, im alr out of energy alr, so dint bother to climb all the way till stand on the top, so came down. ACCOMPLISHED! hoho, we rock.

All of us were so excited to see populated singapore again. When we see high rise biuldings, everyone cheers. and when the guys saw lamp posts, they were going : woah! lamp posts leh !! " went to hougang mall and talked a lot. so glad to drink coke again. chanxi and I sat bus 72 back to tampines, but sat the wrong side! we sat all the way to ang mo kio! dumb us. i miss obs...

Xinying, Chanxi, Zhiwen, Yijun, Jolyn, Adeline, Christina, Chek kai, Zongye, Zi xiang, Yixiang, Mint Hong and Kent.

We all made this camp so memorable. 3 cheers for Shears ! "WE LOVE YOU LIEW ! "

Long post.. but i want to narrate all that happened, cos even when few years down the road, i wanna keep all these memories.

BYE BYE OBS.hello, back to my life and reality.

2006-11-12T02:54:00.000-08:00

Put eight monkeys in a room. In the middle of the room is a ladder, leading to a bunch of bananas hanging from a hook on the ceiling. Each time a monkey tries to climb the ladder, all the monkeys are sprayed with ice water, which makes them miserable.
Soon enough, whenever a monkey attempts to climb the ladder, all of the other monkeys, not wanting to be sprayed, set upon him and beat him up.
Soon, none of the eight monkeys ever attempts to climb the ladder. One of the original monkeys is then removed, and a new monkey is put in the room.
Seeing the bananas and the ladder, he wonders why none of the other monkeys are doing the obvious, but, undaunted, he immediately begins to climb the ladder. All the other monkeys fall upon him and beat him silly.
He has no idea why. However, he no longer attempts to climb the ladder.
A second original monkey is removed and replaced. The newcomer again attempts to climb the ladder, but all the other monkeys hammer the crap out of him. This includes the previous new monkey, who, grateful that he's not on the receiving end this time, participates in the beating because all the other monkeys are doing it. However, he has no idea why he's attacking the new monkey.
One by one, all the original monkeys are replaced. Eight new monkeys are now in the room. None of them have ever been sprayed by ice water. None of them attempt to climb the ladder.
All of them will enthusiastically beat up any new monkey who tries, without having any idea why.

Sadly, humans are just like monkeys.
Life's like that isn't it? monkey see monkey do.

Screwed up

2006-11-10T03:52:00.000-08:00

MY PARENTS ARE IRRESPONSIBLE IDIOTS !
arranged parent meeting tmr with miss anisa, and now wanna cancel it, what are they?! kings and queens??
dad have work, ok fine, so dont say yes in the first place. and the other idiot, reason for not going: bro sit, stay at home and be his 24 hour maid.
WTF .
" my baobei sick, i must stay at home look after him". Can't she just let him stay at home for just few hours in the morning ?! He's your baobei, what, im your dog ?
it's just really bad for miss anisa ok, she compromise to make it on saturday alr, and yet, for some stupid reason you want me to call her to cancel it.
damn you, can't you be more responsible?!
Why only think of your BAOBEI and make things difficult for others. gosh, i really hate you.
He just have some fever, what's the big deal ? you have to attend to his every call? even clean his butt when he shit? MIND YOU, HE'S ALREADY 10 YEARS OLD, PRIMARY FOUR !
I dont see you bothering about me when i'm sick, i'm always left alone at home sleeping and staring at 4 walls.
and now, how the hell can i call anisa.

i hate this screwed up family.

please, anyone keep me busy outside tomorrow.
let me help out at the wedding of whatever, i just need OUT of this damned "home"

School is so tiring.

2006-11-07T05:01:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired already, really want to break free of those things that disrupt my life.
These things include one that goes around finding trouble for me; a spoilt fat egoistic *custard - my brother.
dang, he makes up like 80% of my daily miseries. You dont have the slightest idea how i hate him:/
Just one day back to school made me so exhausted, everything's bombarding me like some chain of missiles; it's even worst than EOYs.
I am tired. TIRED !

Emaths proj is stupid, i dont understand a thing.

CO open house

2006-11-04T06:25:00.001-08:00

Had open house today, our freelance was not bad seh. ha ha ha
but didn't get to play the usual songs we play during open house, was craving for william tell. hee
after open house slacked at concourse, then went back to CO room with Joel cos he wanted to take back his gu bang. played the scissors paper stone split thingy, and tenghui can only open his leg about 1.5m wide. lol.

went back to concourse, ALONE; thanks to joel who didn't want to go with us in the end. saw Eronne(?) [ how to spell ? ] on the way and asked why like never see him going for CO practices anymore, thought he quitted or something.
then he replied : why ? you want see me isit? (cheeky grin)
omg, i think juniors are so thickskinned nowadays. ha ha
or did i do that to laoda and fredrick too? nono, cannot be :O
went back, tiffy and fred started playing hai dai, 5 10 15 and hei bai pei. who lose must drink water. damn funny/

went suntec for dinner with : fred,tiffy,minru,sylvia,zhiyin,yiqing,liang yu,zhiwen and pengyan
funny; i think we ~~might~~ will be banned from gg nydc next time. everyone was looking at us about 98% of the time ! fred even took the monster toy to pose with. and he ~~hit~~ on the waitress name Ruby.

went home, and a lizard bungee jump on my head ! damn gross, i spent so long scrubbing my head in the toilet. YUCK, lizards are the most disgusting creature on earth. I HATE THEM LUH.

oo oo, one more thing, saw ~~mr kuek and serene lee~~ together at suntec. tsk tsk , his face grew tomato red. cute mar. HA HA HA !

this is the IQ question that joel gave us :
there are 10 bottles, each bottle contain many pills. only 1 bottle contain poisonous pills. 1 normal pill weighs 1g, 1 poisonous pill weighs 1.1 gram. if you're only allowed to use the weighing machine to weigh once, how do you determine which bottle contains poisonous pills ?

"shopping" for OBS

2006-11-01T05:09:00.000-08:00

Ho ho ho. Today was the touring around cityhall day with jamietan.
went to beach road first, end up not finding the place because i was too excited seeing the ~~BIG umbrella~~; it was raining. so took a cab, the taxi driver was like, are you sure you guys wanna take my car? cos it's just behind (and he points behind) . i bet jamie was like -.-lll cos that was what i did, ha ha. but sat the cab anyway. lol

reached there, bought fire starter, nylon cord and somehow jamie managed to psycho me to buy the slippers. then we headed off for Suntec, the bus driver asked us to board the bus and i just silly board the bus. HAHA
went carefour buy FBT pants, den walked around, jamie bought her tee, den headed for bugis
laid my eyes on this long sleeve shirt, man, I LIKE ! ):

legend of the pantless kid

2006-10-30T01:47:00.000-08:00

- On the MRT today, some kids were playing a fool with their parents, hanging on the supporting bar; then a small girl just went up to a little boy's leg who is hanging on the bars and pulled his pants down. It was hell hilarious, it went all the way down and his little thingy just pop out. OBSCENE.
The girl ran to her mother and began squealing and crying and the boy cried too. She cried so loudly and almost vomitted, but.. isn't the boy the victim? Why in the world is she squealing.
I just hate squeals.
It was funny while it lasted, entertaining.

- I like this skin, it looks cute.

- Had o'level chinese today, it wasn't that easy, but definitely easier than HCL. Still, A1 is just impossible for me, not even an A2. And was thinking, how did people attained the ability to conjure up masked feelings and portray it as if it's real; I could never do that, everything shows on my face.
Oh well, here's one for thoughts:

We wear the mask that grins and lies,

It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,

This debt we pay to human guile;

With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,

And mouth with myriad subtleties.

linking life with just a game: BRIDGE

2006-10-21T07:00:00.000-07:00

I decided not to do the quiz, haha. sorry angelina, kind of long and when paste on blogger, it all stick together, very difficult to do.

im proud to say, I've grown up. thanks to the past years, and those wonderful people around me at that time, anything that comes upon me doesnt seem to be as bad anymore. A thunderstorm is like a light drizzle to me. What's the big deal?

it's like playing a game, ( i learnt how to play bridge today:D ) at first, I will choose the wrong patner, but after a round, i will manage to choose the right one. i lost because i chose teng hui instead of jamie, cos she'll help me win. ha ha ha

anyway, that's like how life goes about isn't it. linking to bridge again : you never know who your patner is, and you guess who is that person, 25% you'll get it correct, 75% you'll get it wrong. when you got the wrong one, the right one would be secretly helping you, - friendship.
in the game, you think that he/she is your patner who is supposedly should be nice to you and help you with the game, but you might be wrong(?) he/she might be your opponent trying to make you lose. so, never be superficial, never judge a book by its cover. you'll lose out in the end.

i came to realise that the television gives incorrect information about bad people. notice all bad guys look bad from inside to out? from head to toe? people should start watching shows like ai sha 17. learn about how yi jing who looks so innocent can be so evil. oh anw, that show is nice :D
hmmm. . or watch ko one. de-stress yourself while watching how lei ke si who looks so si wen can be the legendary K.O 2 and deceive everyone except the clever ya se wang; the others remain stupid and get played by him. brainless people like wang da dong.
how you look totally depends on what your parents do in the process of giving birth to you, doesnt determine how your character is. there's many people i know who looks like a total crook, but are so beautifully nice on the inside. (:

-> had a super small "gathering" with a few seniors yesterday. a short happy period to clear my dull day. something really funny happened. ha ha, : sorry =]
today went to school to do some preparation for open house and someone's BIG DAY. we slacked a little, ok.. rather a lot. and tenghui taught us bridge. i won quite a few times! ha, CO's tradition.
Min Ru, someday, you should learn some card games. haha, starting with UNO. heeee xD

변장에 있는 천사

three cheers to car, steph, jerome !

2006-10-13T05:33:00.000-07:00

had another singing session with car, steph, jerome and estelle.
and i kindof made the system " explode"
hahas,
so they changed another room for us,
which was so super nice of them. lol

sang sang and sang. while steph sleep sleep and sleep.
and jerome can sing sia. hahas,
nice.
had fun luh (:

tmr's graduation, byebye seniors!
but somehow, i very lazy to wake up so early tmr. ZzZzzZzzz

party after exams !

2006-10-11T18:38:00.000-07:00

PARTY WORLD ROCKS!
i like the drinks(:
and the wireless mikes.
and most of all,
the people i went with!!
WAHAHA
thanks guys:D

today and tomorrow is holiday,
finally can have my long awaited rest.
and a whole loads of fun
so anyone wanna go out,
make it during the next four days
or next week im gonna die a horrible death.
bwahahaha
(:

Rants.

2006-10-09T01:23:00.000-07:00

WAH, buay tahan lah!
i've been tolerating screams and shouts in my house ever since the exams started.
okay, ever since my brother was borned.
but that's not the point, the point is, I HAVING EXAMS LAH!!
f hell
he one exam den everyone in the house must help tutor him. or rather not, is do his homework for him.
so, if anyone were to come my house someday, the screamings from my house is certainly not mine.
hor min ru. hahaha
arghx
still dont get why my bro i such a pain in the ass
we must be enemies in our past past past past lives.
and i haven got over my spoilt doreamon
he claims he aint in the wrong again
yeah, one day he can just go rob a bank, and tell the cops that.
or he can kill someone (maybe me) and says he's right.
and get my parents to die for him or something.
__________________________________

physics paper was ok today,
despite the littlest bit of time i studied only,
so it's considered lucky (:
cheers.

i can't wait for EOYs to end.
although ending means getting back the papers with no regrets.
i hope so, cos dear yizhuang says i have the sulky face for all papers except english.
hahaha
but im gonna play.
there's so much things to plan and do.
outings, CHALETS! camps etc etc.
i miss my oldd pals, seniors and everyone, hopefully, there'll be time for all after the exams

and to the dear guys who gave such a superb perfomance ytd, don grieve for wad you dont have, be happy for wad you have. (: maybe it's a blessing in disguise, k? jiaqing, cheers :D

bye bye A1

2006-10-05T23:16:00.000-07:00

geography was a disaster
my A1 is saying bye bye to me
i even forgot wad's the oxbow lake
that qns is the exact same one as mid years!
and i got full marks.
this time 0
arghs
pissed.

2006-10-04T03:24:00.000-07:00

ok.. exams..
simply..
sucks big time!
a maths was a killer,
for me lah.
made my moral damn low
study so hard for a math
in the end also fail
klsajaflk;jsdjfglgj
den SS, i during exam suddenly forgot all the factors,
dont even know wad the questions wants.
12 marks gone.
bomb.

today's paper,
e math was duper easy
im an idiot, drank mocha at 10 in the night,
wanna sleep at 12 plus, cant fall asleep.
-.-
chem was hard.
or rather, i cannot remember anything,
no time to think
tmr's history and english
hist..
heck already.
since SS fail, den fail together.
wahaha

2006-09-29T06:41:00.000-07:00

today paper 1s were pretty bad.
my eng is deproving, steep drop.
and i dont want it to drop!!
):
i want my ENG back!!!!!!!

studied at airport after that, stayed till 830
did quite a bit of a maths. (been doing it for weeks)
realised i dint bring home e math txtbk, panic
but aye, dont care le, dont think need also
gonna study at airport for the next few days
feel free to drop by and say hi. HA

if i fail my a maths again, im gonna kill myself.
studied so hard for a maths.
but i think my brain will always be like that- dumb
ok, so ytd was quite a moody day
i shall never be like that ever again
SWEAR
as you say, now is studies!
take care.
or i'll hate you for not doing so.

anw, all the best to ppl out there in their exams!
be it EOYs, O lvls or promos.
GOOD LUCK !

2006-09-25T05:00:00.000-07:00

i just shitted a pile of black gooey substance.
hell pain.
it made my head hurt a great deal too.

this is a real funny convo with serene's dad
(im speaking like an ultra good girl) :

serene ; fat queen says:hi
JOane> ???? says:hello
serene ; fat queen says:how is yr study?
JOane> ???? says:wait, serene, dont bluff
serene ; fat queen says:i am serene's daddy
JOane> ???? says:eh.. ok..
JOane> ???? says:studies not bad
serene ; fat queen says:yes, do you rememer me?
JOane> ???? says:yea. haah
serene ; fat queen says:so how is yr school?
serene ; fat queen says:i think serene and you need to encourage each other more
serene ; fat queen says:i think sec 3 is not easy nowaday, what do you think?
JOane> ???? says:yah, we help each other
serene ; fat queen says:good, keep it up
JOane> ???? says:very stressed, they're like cramming a lot of things together
JOane> ???? says:cos o lvls early 3 weeks this year
serene ; fat queen says:i think she is happy to hv u as her friend as she is always happy after meeting you
serene ; fat queen says:i think friednship helps a lot to release stree
serene ; fat queen says:stress
JOane> ???? says:yah, i also happy to have her ar
serene ; fat queen says:because you two know wach other for many years from young age
JOane> ???? says:yah, easier to click
serene ; fat queen says:my dad doesnt wanna leave the c omp
serene ; fat queen says:he loves u
JOane> ???? says:L O L
serene ; fat queen says:grils should have close friend of same sex so that they can share things and all thing under the sun
JOane> ???? says:yeah, true
serene ; fat queen says:so u and she shall see each other more frequent that both of u could
serene ; fat queen says:encourage each other and help eact other
JOane> ???? says:ok, we'll try. cos we both also busy with our own studies and stuff
serene ; fat queen says:please come to our house during hoilday, ok?
JOane> ???? says:yeah, okay (:
serene ; fat queen says:u can stay with her if you like and allowed by your parents
JOane> ???? says:heh.. try. not really sure my parents will allow
serene ; fat queen says:take care and study hard and smart
serene ; fat queen says:but, results are not evertthing as i have epxeirenced it myslef JOane> ???? says:k, thank oyu
JOane> ???? says:you*
serene ; fat queen says:it is relationship, understanding, love, care, and many factors in life that are more importnant than just the resluts of exam
JOane> ???? says:yes, results are just superficial stepping tools
JOane> ???? says:i think.
serene ; fat queen says:a few more marks do not make you happier but good friendship last forever
serene ; fat queen says:start treaturing friends during shcool day helps you to meet ture friends JOane> ???? says:yeah ok, i will
serene ; fat queen says:ok, that's for all and see you soon
JOane> ???? says:kays, see you
serene ; fat queen says:bye

wierd isnt it.
and whenever i dont reply him, or reply slower, he will wait until i reply if not serene cant use the comp.
(i was on the phone with her)
never liked talking to adults.
im more of a kid person:D
okay,
AND MY STOMACH AND HEAD HURTS!!
HELP! ):

2006-09-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

im feeling pretty irritated by people who think that he'she is always right.
even if we're doing pretty much the same stuff.
fck'g retarded.

okay and so im a bad girl today.
but so what, i dont wanna waste my time four hours in school
furthermore my mum allows and encourage it.
so, dont give me the "too bad"
cos it freaking piss me off

another congrats to the two singing gods.
hope i get to congratulate them again next week (:
2545/2546,
my block no. 254. brings them luck, although they dont need any.
also the Ar of Iodine.
and im stressed.
very.
pray hard that the exams would be over soon
and that the results would be satisfying
so that i can play hard, haven been doing that for the pass 9 months
changi fairy point chalet,
HERE I COME!
woohoo.

2006-09-16T04:10:00.000-07:00

went to support jiaqing, javin and kai xiang today
woots,
jiaqing and javin got in
they were so good lah
but still, must improve to go further
haha, jiaqing on stage his hand still thinking of his erhu
and i dont think javin sings like fei yu qing
BUT, fei yu qing's voice is not bad
ha ha ha

okay, i seriously think i should stop playing around when EOYs is coming
I MISS SENIORS!! :D

2006-09-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

seriously,
marcus kuek can stop paying so much attention to me
cos it really freaks me out
you know,
whenever i feel like slacking and not pay attention in his lesson
i cant
cos every now and then
he'll ask,
joane, understand?
or, joane iknow you're not listening, cos you're looking past me
or,
joane, need my help or not?
* look at him, shake head
@ really?
*shake head
@sure not
* once again shake head with a blank look ( dao look)
@ ok ar, you say one ar, here got 39 people minus cheryl see you say you don need my help one ar
* blink
nod
@ wlao, you really damn dao,
buay ta han lah
* breathe
@ snatch paper, start teaching

ok, i know it's good to be like that,
but sometimes, he could like concentrate on other students?
cos i bet there's a lot more that dont understand
and he flared up at us today(?)
mood swing
stressed by all the stupid topics they're teaching
and the exams that is coming in around 2 weeks time
frankly,
so when i reached home, i slept immediately
escape

went to macpherson primary the 2nd time for CIP
okay, this time although that guy is naughty and annoying too
but at least he was cute
he speak in this indian accent which was so hilarious. HAHA
and at least he didnt took my nametag and run around the place like a mad monkey like the pri 6 kid derrick
Damien was ok.. cool lah
he sings high school musical songs.
so cute
and gave me his msn, and asked whether i was coming back nexxt week
doubt so, i'd die
hahaha
bet angelina cant stand him, cos he pointed middle finger
crude lah, pri 5 only leh
the world's changing
shi jie bian le
if it was last time, i wouldnt even dare talk to those supposedly seniors.
and even worst, wont scold them in such a rude way

2006-09-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

slacked today.
went through my com files of pictures
miss the past and seniors
and when i watched the the farwell ppt 2005 again
teared at the end
without music somemore,
imagine what will happen if sundial dreams is played again.
ok,
at least there are memories(?)
motto: live life to the fullest

- these few days are the times im having dangerously low self esteem

2006-09-05T20:18:00.000-07:00

I deleted my previous post,
because i realised that the whole thing was written in terrible english.
HAHA
okay, so i tried to study this morning, but ended up using the com once again.
i'm useless aint I.
you know, sometimes the world is pretty fake.
an illusion of life is placed upon us, therefore all of us are superficial.
Don't you agree that you guys out there judge people on first impressions? on looks?
if that person is fat, ugly or gay, we'll all go: eeeeew
that's a sad thing, but it's true right.
i have pessimist thoughts about the world, pardon me.
but still, i appear to be optimist,
cracking dumb jokes, that sometimes have no link.
aye, who isnt like that.
who wants the world to know that they are sad? angry or depressed? ok, maybe those desporados for attention kind of people.
so yah, another thought, everyone thinks differently.
if you think that this is wrong, others might think that it's perfectly fine.
there's no perfect and accurate answer in life,
everyone thinks differently, and that's a fact.
if not, why do you think there are conflicts in this world?
the terrorists could just sit at home and watch the JOKER destroy batman
or watch BIRDMAN save the world.
yes, there is something called birdman, ask your father who is above 40.

enough of my crap?
yeah, i guess so.
BYE

2006-09-04T02:45:00.000-07:00

okay,
so these few days have been "studying" real hard.
tried to lah, but was usual, to no avail
at serene's house now
came back from the airport, supposedly to send cindy off,
but yah, due to my stupidity.. :D
went to toa payoh yesterday
and sorry caroline! ):
congrats to jiaqing and javin.
and yah, nothing more to add
so fat, holidays have been really boring
yah.
yah
yah

sometimes i wonder, when you hear someone say someting, how many of them are real(?) do they speak for the sake of speaking, but just dont mean a word. i hate to keep pondering about lies, but i cant help it. i suck.
trying so hard to ignore your existance.
im gonna succeed, i tell you (:
BYE

2006-08-30T21:27:00.000-07:00

teacher's day today (:
ok, im officially bored.
saw a few seniors in the last couple of days; joel tiffy fred javin yirui zilu and jerome (>)
yeah, really hope to have an outing or sth with seniors again
but i dont think it will be anytime soon.
haiy,
ok so im rotting at home
thanks to some retard who pangsehed me
idiots

something is everything.. everything is something and yet nothing

went back to gongshang in the end,
dint do anything much
but found out that somebody has become quite a female dog
please next time, keep your comments to yourself.
everyone is their own individual, dont judge people into two categories; people that are like you, and people that are unlike you.
and stop showing that you're jealous of people :D
please and thankyous

anw went to study with rene,
she can really concentrate on studying when she puts her mind to it
so unlike me
and she's cleverer too.
sad, and to think that i thought that chung cheng's homework are difficult enough
dunman high's much worst (duH)
yeah okay, studied till around 7 plus,
went to popular, shun bian wanted to drop by min ru's work place to say hi
but dint see her there.
haiy
yah den go went home after that
i think im having amnesia
cos i can't really remember much of my pri school days.
forgot a lot of people that i once knew
like, who's breynerd?! (dont even know it's spelt like that)
ok, anw, i dont really remember knowing him/
but yah, im supppose to have known him b4
sian,
i hope i remember those days
cos i think it's funny when you think back on your childhood days
how we do retarded stuff and all
know some stuff that,
some people that i actually have a liking for ( not in the way you think, just respected and dont dislike anymore) is quite despo . ya so, i'll learn to feel oblivious to everything

2006-08-25T07:02:00.000-07:00

The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. She feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

She's willing to participate and to allow herself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension. She clings to her belief that her hopes and ideas are realistic, but needs encouragement and reassurance. Applies very exacting standards to her choice of a partner and wants guarantees against loss or disappointment.

Suffering from pent-up overstimulation which threatends to discharge itself in an outburst of impulsive and impassioned behavior. The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. Her inability to enforce her will causes her to over-react in stubborn defiance and by assigning to others all the blame for her own failures.

2006-08-24T00:58:00.000-07:00

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Stefthyname is your soulmate.

You truly love Car'line

You consider Min Ru your true friend.

You know that Serene is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Ivan for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Javin is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Cindy is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Fredrick is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Fredrick ~~changes lovers faster than underwear~~.

You secretly think JiaHong is shy and nonconfrontational. And that JiaHong has a hidden internet romance. (?)

got this from JamieTan :D

some are totally true.. some i just plain weird

2006-08-23T19:12:00.000-07:00

HEROES
no, heroes are not superman etc etc.
heroes are those people who could finish their homework everyday without fail and understand everything the teacher says and doesnt go for tuition. and most importantly of all, doesnt fail any subjects.
me, on the other hand, is the villian.
i don't do any homework, don't understand a shit the teachers are saying and most importantly, fail almost every test. (e maths, a maths, physics, chem)
the only thing that is identical to a hero is i don't go for tuition.

Tests
Teachers are evil creatures who give us loads of tests and tells us 2 days before hand.
chinese test today, e maths and physics test on friday, a maths and geog test next tue, SS test next wed.
This explains why young people are having a higher percentage of depression cases and why singapore mistook that we're experiencing ageing population now; young adults are looking more like elderlies now with their strands of white hairs. especially those that are too poor to dye their hair black.

Sleeping hours
If i become a newsbroadcaster one day, everynight after the news at 11pm, i'll reckon everyone to sleep because people should have at least 8 hours of sleep everyday, especially students who have to wake up at 5 plus everyday.
If i become a scientist one day, i'll invent something to slow down the rotation of the earth so that each day will have 48 hours.
If i become a lawyer one day, i'll... scold the judge :D

2006-08-19T22:15:00.000-07:00

went showtime yesterday
and saw nurul, jonathan and JOAKIM GOMEZ!
he's damn cute luh, cuter than on tv.
cos on tv, i dint really think he is VERY cute, just cute.
and the cute guy who can't really sing.
yeah, but he real live really damn super cute
no wonder he ain't out of singapore idol yet
CUTE !

was kinda sick during the recording,
plus the damn lights were shining directly at my eyes,
making it worst.
but it's really great that chung cheng got the highest marks
cos they really rocked,
and deserved it.
realised that being celebs are tough, cos of the irregular hours they work,
pity them. tsk.

good luck to rit later on for teenage icon (:

2006-08-18T05:05:00.000-07:00

You Are 16% Happy

You know that there's more to life than how you've been living it.
Life can be rough at times, but most of your unhappiness is self-inflicted.

How Happy Are You?

Your Chances of Being a Multimillionaire: 48%

You have a decent shot at being a multimillionaire. Surprised?
You're confident and a hard worker. Keep it up!

Will You Be a Multimillionaire?

Your Lucky Underwear is Blue

You are caring and extroverted. You've made relationships your number one focus, and your lucky blue underwear can bring some balance to them.
You thrive in one-on-one situations. You are a good listener and a natural born therapist.

Sometimes you let the concerns of others become too important in your life, leading to stress and worry.
If you want more balance, put on your blue underpants. They'll help you take care of yourself first.

What Color Is Your Lucky Underwear?

You Are 26% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well.
But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

How Selfish Are You?

You Are 36% Lady

You tend to make up your rules of etiquette, throwing all conventions aside.
And while you try to be a lady (sometimes), your behavior is often quite shocking.

Are You A Lady?

What Your White Outfit Means

You're a natural beauty - and you never let your fashion steal the show.
You have a quiet confidence that you'll look great in almost anything.
While you may feel understated, men are attracted to your mystery.

Designer match: Gucci

Signature accessory: A cashmere scarf

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

You've Already Found Love!

Whether you know it or not, you've already found love
And this guy could be it, so hold on to him!
And if you're single, start looking more carefully at your guy friends
It could be anyone you already know, so keep an open mind.

Where Will You Find Love?

see, im bored;

had a great walkout with car'line

really miss those times...

2006-08-16T07:36:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM (:
treated my family to pizza hut,
yeh, something's wrong with me today,
but let's just say.. today's my lucky day :D

happy sweet sixteen khangleng !

I'm tired now,
i'm tired everyday.
wanted to sleep in the afternoon,
but thanks to those indian men with hankerchief cutting grass,
i couldn't sleep.
SLEEEP

nights (x

2006-08-14T06:30:00.000-07:00

the world's oxygen seems to be depleting,
couldn't really breathe properly in the morning
finally experienced pre-fainting.
but guess i just dint sleep the previous night
so yes, i just woke up

tmr's finally a dazu,
hope things will be alright?

ahh, im still tired.
anw, how come fiona xie's breast so big?
my mum say it's real.
hahaah,

2006-08-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

cross country today, went with yizhuang, angelina and angel.
we walked the whole way, but my leg still hurts luh, cos it's brisk walking
then sat down in the sun, with dragon flies and grasshoppers,
having spastic talks with rachelko and abel.
hahaha, rk was funny. she's scared of grasshoppers.
anw, main point of this post is,
I GOT LOST TWICE TODAY
i know, RETARDED
but it's scary getting lost,
esp. if you're alone, in the night, looking around and you dont know where you are.
yes, i dint follow jerome and yizhuang's instructions well, and ended up at lavender finding a way home.

and so, i realised.
i relied a lot on others in the past.
and yeah, now too.
without them, im lost.
lost in everywhere; everything i do.
and somehow, these people are just... gone.
you know, just somewhere not around you
and you start feeling so very insecure and scared of the world.
yes, i'm feeling like that.

2006-08-09T18:34:00.000-07:00

yeps, im fine already.
thanks :D

yesterday was the trip to laoshi's house.
met jamie and geraldine first.
bought presents for weilin and wanting, and shopped around for mua sunglasses xD
jamie bought a bracelet, yeh it's gorgeous, but i just dont have the i wanna buy feeling.
lol-
went back to the mrt station and met up with the COUPLE.
and then sylvia, shiang and joy soon came.
the walk there became some kind of an excursion, because everyone walks in pairs -.-
i was tricked into buying helium balloons for geraldinequek.
ate shui jiao at laoshi's place
then we sat on the stairs and started, as what jamie says, camwhoring.
the pics were all pretty, GERALDINE! i want the pictures!!
and please dont distribute those spastic pictures of me.
please and thankyous (:

after that they went to take neoprints and i met up with my parents.
i'm forced to see NDP
seriously, everything is almost the same every year
only that this year's exceptionally boring.
no idea too, maybe it's cos, thanks to my idiotic brother, i sat with this gu gu that lies on my shoulder whenever she wants to talk to me.
that is so gross.
so the ending part of the NDP i used the cap to cover my eyes.
too bright and shiny.
oh, but the fireworks were cool
but it wasnt the nicest, there'll be nicer ones tomorrow and on saturday.
hahas, during the driveout of the stadium, saw many dumb dumb people, illegally parking their car outside the stadium waiting for those pretty fireworks.
have that urgh to open the window and shout to them their retardness.
funny to see them taking camera, anticipating for the fireworks, wonder how long have they been there? HAHA
~~i feel sorry for them~~ ):
spastic :/

so today's gonna be another boring day,
gonna have manymany ~~homework~~ tomorrow, and all of it are not with me,
:D

i got the temptation to change blogskin again.
heeee, CIAOZ

2006-08-05T21:49:00.000-07:00

oh man,
my eyes hurts shit.
sore eyes, and it became the size of fred's eyes.
serious.
yesterday, only one of it was like that, now both shrunk.
ok, so im trying to blog without having to look at the screen, cos it's pain when i look at the screen.
ok, it's pain even if i dont look at the screen.
it's pain when i open my eyes.
it's pain when i turn my eyeballs.
yes, pain
and no, it's not that having small eyes is bad, it's just that having small bloodshot eyes is eeeeks.
gross me out.
makes me wonder what if my eyes remains this size forever.
ohmygod, so not me.
haiy, ok dont t hink i can go to school for the next few days.
gonna miss lessons and not know anything once again.

aye.. pain.
bye bye

2006-08-04T07:49:00.000-07:00

im feeling so neutral.
as if things are happening from the tv.
-so random (:

feeling so useless towards my surroundings. like, things are happening, but you could just watch them go by and maybe weep at it. perhaps god threw a dice to determine how our lives would go, and mine was 4. it ain't bad, but it ain't good too, and it din't even passed. that's how im going to be like, not passable. is it that you have to be smiley for 24 hours in front of everyone in the world to prove that you're a happy person? yeah, i guess people really like smiley people, cos im like that too. :D but at least i dont lick anyone's dick. ok, i think this is kind of a random thought. it's something i wanted to say since sec 1.

2006-08-01T01:03:00.000-07:00

okay, so yesterday was bad..
very bad. or rather, this whole month was bad.
i guess it wasnt only me who felt so, right?
so, dont go read the pevious post alright/

i said dont

dont scroll.

ok, stop here.
let me tell you something to keep you occupied,
today when i walking down the road, just beside the carpark,
there's this bottle, that is thrown down. lucky it dint hit my head!
im already dumb enough.
ok anyway, i looked up, and saw this black thing stick his head out of the "window". must be the culprit lah,
AND no, he's not indian. it's just too dark to see.
if i was 5 cm taller and 5 kg heavier, i might walk up the stairs to tick him off.
but no, im still 159cm and 43kg):
so when i get to my house (my balcony view can see the carpark),
i look out and saw him pouring some white stuff down, wetting people's hair. and you can see people desperately dodging it, walking one big round just to get away from it and no one bothered to see who the hell is doing that. and they're adults!
they can't be too afraid like me ?
could they?
it's no wonder foreigners says that singaporeans are lazy and selfish.
yeah, i am too.

lame post.. but yeah, just felt like blogging about something.
fred's got a fever so he's hot. (that makes more sense i think)
:D

2006-07-31T04:00:00.000-07:00

All these black words you'll be seeing now will haunt you all your life with the vulgar. so dont read.
WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY " YOU THOUGHT YOU VERY CLEVER AH, HOW MUCH YOU STUDY ALSO WILL FAIL ONE LAH!" WTF, IT'S YOU WHO ASK ME TO STUDY, AND IT'S YOU AGAIN TO ASK ME NOT TO STUDY. STOP CONTRADICTING YOURSELF, COS IT MAKES YOU SEEM LIKE A MAD PERSON.
I OPENED MY BOOK FOR NOT MORE THAN 5 MINS, NOT EVEN READ FINISH 3 PAGES OF FUNCTIONS, AND YOU SCREAM AT ME. FUCK, ! WHAT HAVE I TO DO TO MAKE YOU STOP DOING ALL THESE TO ME?
AND THAT FAT BALL OF SHIT, YOU'RE LIKE PRI 4 AND YOU HIT ME, AND SAY : HIT YOU MY PROBLEM, IF YOU HIT ME DEN MUMMY BEAT YOU THAN YOU KNOW. AND HE HIT. FUCKING SHIT, I ONE WHACK ON HIS HEAD HIS HEAD CAN FLY TO AFRICA WATCH THE FAT BULL SHIT ON YOUR FACE.
IF IM SO STUPID, AND NO AMOUNT OF STUDYING WOULD HELP.
FINE.
I SHALL NOT STUDY ANYMORE.
PERIOD.

School have been real stressed, with lessons that i couldnt grasp a word the teacher is talking about - alien language
three tests coming up this week; chinese, emaths and amaths
and as everyone know, i ~~rocked~~ sucked at all these subjects.
ok, chinese could be studied (if i have the time, or even bothered).
but the 2 maths, i'm totally gonna die@

let us analyse:
firstly for e maths, i don't know what is variations. only th ing i know about is there's supposed to be this fishy thingy sign that says proportionate to or something.
graphical solutions is still ok, i know how to do it. proud of myself :D

ok, now amaths. FUNCTIONS
tried to listen in class today, but sharmilah jumped to inverse functions today. so without any clue what is functions, the proper one, not the upside down one is, obviously i couldn't understand the one about inverse proportion. and so, conclusion, i ended up ~~falling asleep~~; almost falling alseep.

now coming to the topic of the day: ex-kaopei + present act cool -think-i'm-so-shuai gay
those bus mates today should know what i'm talking about.
i don't remember you being kaopei, cos whenever you were to speak, you're asked to shut up.
i forgot why HMers bully him last time, but there's always a reason when the guys bully someone.
for example, at first i thought it was quite bad to bully qunling. imagine getting your back pierced by zongye with a pen! whoops.. that was accident. but yeah, i thought it was kinda evil to do so, UNTIL! one fine day, qunling just sit behind me. He's SOOO irritating and annoying and retarded that i myself start throwing everything out of his table. O.o --> bet you guys having this kind of face right now.
so, there's more like ~~huiqi, zheng yi~~ yada yada.
the point is, if you have no attitude problem or wadsoever that makes people despise you, you wont have any bully-ers.
even if at that moment when you're bullied, you dint do anything wrong, there's the past to look back on. the disgusting stuff you accumulated for yourself.
or maybe we're just used to picking on you :D
no matter how you may seem now, thinking everyone thinks you're cool and nice,
you wrong. f hell wrong.
cos there's always me in the list that says, i dont think you're cool or nice at all.
and the funniest thing is, you can say that you dont like me.
but you SHOULD have known long long time ago
that i don't like you either
and to think my bestest friend was nice to you, you backstabbed her.
is that the definition of nice?

ok, im off to study! and cindy will go : wlao, she so guai you know! haha,
i hope i am too